the end?

Mar 11, 2009 15:01

well, it's been a long time since i've written in this ( Read more... )

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dracsdaughter March 12 2009, 16:09:49 UTC
My goodness. This is written so eloquently and passionately. Certainly one hundred percent from the heart.

Amazing.

Good luck to you in everything.

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rockstarjosh March 13 2009, 02:14:23 UTC
thank you

whatever happens is most likely for the best.

i can understand that. whether or not my emotions are weathered enough to make this less harsh

thanks for reading and responding, i appreciate knowing that people have seen my thoughts. it makes them more REAL or something. idk

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lachikka March 13 2009, 01:42:06 UTC
Oh Chene.

My heart completely broke for you reading this. I hope everything works out for you. But if you have to change yourself for someone, someone who you feel has already started to move on in her head, I really don't think it's worth it. Recognizing flaws/immaturity is one thing, but changing something like the passion with which you have conversations is entirely another. That's part of you.

And I completely identify with needing to hear 100% no to give up (I often don't even accept that), but really, you should not waste yourself and all you obviously have to give if you're not going to get 100% back.

And that is my unasked for input. Again, I hope you get what you want.

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rockstarjosh March 13 2009, 02:09:01 UTC
you must know how hard it is to take other peoples advice when you just WANT something so bad.

that is the theme for my actions right now.

they are all the "wrong" thing to do i hear. From my friends and family. They all say I should leave her and not deal with the BS.

even my mind identifies the situation and points things out to me. But I will know soon enough if I at least give it another shot anyway.

thank you for reading my post and responding. Somehow it makes me feel better. lol

why does one not accept 100% "no" for an answer?

because we recognize the possibility for change in attitude or feeling?

does our hope imagine that the "no" may be sincere but not true?
maybe she is biased from being alone.
maybe she's detached from focusing on the negative.
maybe she doesn't know what she wants.

maybe she doesn't know what she wants.
thats hope right now

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