rockstarphase: hottie
Musicboygh: sexi
rockstarphase: cutie
Musicboygh: sweetie\
rockstarphase: lovely
Musicboygh: cupcake
rockstarphase: precious
Musicboygh: darling
rockstarphase: honey
Musicboygh: bitch
Musicboygh: lol
rockstarphase: lol
rockstarphase: <3
I sure do love my friends <3333
So my mom was just yelling at me saying how I need to gain weight and not like lose anymore.I'm trying to gain weight haha It's weird. I eat like ummm 4-5 meals a day. I guess I kinda eat like a pig? maybe. you know...my mom cracks me up...because she knows that fact very well.
Hmm...it's so pretty out. If I could, I'd just go out and walk around wherever. I miss doing that. I want to start writing again. I guess lately I haven't really expressed that creative side of me. I feel like I'm doing so much of late, but at the same time I feel as if I'm counterproductive and am just wasting away my life. Who knows.
I saw Cheryl last weekend and today. It was good to see her except she's turning into looking and talking like the one who she left us for. Even though they aren't together, in fact cheryl's love is in a nice relationship. Today made me realize how much I miss this family. How much I hate these changes. I miss Cheryl, I miss honey. I miss Gammy. I found out my Uncle Kermit, Aunt Charlene, my mom's cousin they are all in a condition which they will end up dead soon.
Life changes so rapidly. Before you can appreciate what you have it's torn away from you. It's torn away right before you could begin to understand things and make something out of it. You later learn their good intentions. That they really care and loved you. You made them feel guilty because you blamed them of that very thing when in fact they loved you very dearly.
Too many changes. But I'm still going on.
Night <3