I remember feeling things for you i never felt for anyone else. I remember you were kind and funny. You used to make me laugh so much and i did too, i loved that. I remember you were the only one to laugh at my dumb jokes and made me feel special. I remember that you used to love writing, you always loved art, and although i didnt know it back then, you loved great music as well ( well some some!! lol ... ) Hmm, you used to caress me when we laid together and your affection made me feel like a million bucks! I remember we used to agree on a lot of things, you used to tell me id be a great father and i knew you would be a great mother. I remember we used to think alike at times and sometimes youd say we were so alike it was bad for us. I know we had our disagreements and our relationship had extremely sour moments, but it seems like so many years ago to me now that the only thing i really hold on to is the feelings we had for eachother which could never be replaced by anything else. As for how you looked like, ill never forget you. I
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:) thank you i needed that. why would you want to be back in each others lives? you need to focus on where you are now in life with gaby and with yourself. ive been in a rough patch lately and i think i finally got out. i missed you every day, not that i still dont but i just dont let my mind wander as often. i hate to admit it but im finally in love again, for real, like almost how i was in love with you. except with you its different because we grew up together basically. i miss the things we used to do at times mostly like go to local shows or practically almost die every time we would go out to see your friends, something would always happen LOL. i've completely managed to settle down and be myself. i hardly smoke now, i go to every show of every band i actually listen to lol, i can dress up to go places! i even managed to celebrate an anniversary for the first time lol. it all feels so strange and i was terrible at it because i had never done it before but it felt nice. it felt grown up. and by the way, seeing you that day gave
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btw this is probably a certain "until next time" ...whenever that may be because i am moving in with kelvin next month. we found a place and are waiting for it to be ready Dec 1. everything is so fast and im excited but its not how i wanted it to happen. also, i only ever pictured myself moving in with you. so anyway. i wont have any privacy so if you want to ever communicate itll be before that date. :)
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