So I am a senior in college now granted I have been to 4 but I have stayed on track. I decided to change my career outlook however. Here at SRU education is a second major not an emphasis and you don't get a minor. I do not agree with that at all. So I have decided to drop education and stick with a major in history and a minor in english ( Read more... )

So yea working at a gas station is great and all but how freaking long 8 hours can feel. not only that but people who are drunk are to difficult to deal with. Kind of makes you rethink the next tim eyou may get drunk. Recent home life events have really made me think about things. I have done some intense deep thinking. Which is good don't get ( Read more... )

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Well things in Fort Wayne have been going alright well except for not having a job yet. Sarah has been motivating me to go fill out more applications. Im not use to having to fill out applications or being rejected so I must try to cope with this. Sarah told me I need to express my feelings more which she is right. I try I really do but when my ( Read more... )

Well its been four days since I quit. Yesterday I cried without warning I swear its like breaking up with a girlfriend. The tears just roll down. So what do you do? Well if you're me you go down memory lane. It all started at a Compuware tryout 9 years ago. I was a scrappy kid from the city trying to play a game I didn't even know existed. I ( Read more... )

I quit softball....for what I think is good reasoning....but I can't sleep.....and I can't stop thinking about it....why did it end this way....they say ur teamates are ur sisters but it sure didn't seem like it.. sometimes I just wanna say fuck it all...now on to somewhere new....like I always say life goes on.

So no one reads my journal but who cares. Its been about 4 months since my last post and everyone knows how much stuff has gone atleast anyone who actually reads my diary. I had nothing to do this morning so I figured I would update. Softball is going alright I'm not playing like myself but I think its because of a lil added pressure. My ( Read more... )

Well Im 21 its not like much has changed or has it? I only had a beer and it wasnt that great. It was nothing like last years birthday. What am I doing? I don't even know. You think what your doing is right but then you argue with yourself even more. I cant get the memories out of my head. I cant hold back the tears when I fall asleep at ( Read more... )

Well so much has happened and since my journal doesnt reach a broad audience its not like I need to explain anything. I could say Im sorry a million times and it would never make up for what I have done. I think the worse thing is I cant figure out why I did or even if its the right thing to do. I want to just be like Im sorry i have been idiot ( Read more... )