More personal rambling
What's up with all my personal focus these days? Must be a result of the stress.
No H50, but I really, really, really want to get a recap/picspam done this weekend. I miss it so much. That's why I'm wasting time her writing a blog post? Doesn't make sense to me either. And I've got a couple ideas for Woman's Day, but how do I fit in that time to my already packed schedule?
I'm still working long hours. :( I thought it would get better when The Big Project was over, but I still seem to have way more work than I can do in the normal amount of hours. I am so exhausted. I have trouble sleeping, too. Because I'm worried about work and school and these stupid headaches.
I have to finish an essay today, then I plan to work on a recap/picspam. The weather is really cold, so it would be nice to stay inside. Then tomorrow, I'll try to get a bunch of work done. I love watching the Oscars and want to so much! I'll either record it or work while I'm watching. I can multitask like that withe work, but I can't with school work. Hence, i want to write my essay today.
I need to let go of something. I don't have a family. Everyone I know has someone--a mother, father, grandmother, aunt, cousin, sister, brother--someone who cares. That makes me so crazy. Yes, I have friends, but they have--yes--families. Even though I'm important, I'm second to their families. I always feel like I'm not worth loving, because I don't have what everyone else has. I need to let go of that, because it isn't going to change. Just make the best of what I have. Love myself. I don't understand why this happened in my life. It seems so unfair. One good thing: this is what made me fall in love with H50 and Ohana, which is what brought me to LJ, which is where I met some wonderful people!
No H50, but I really, really, really want to get a recap/picspam done this weekend. I miss it so much. That's why I'm wasting time her writing a blog post? Doesn't make sense to me either. And I've got a couple ideas for Woman's Day, but how do I fit in that time to my already packed schedule?
I'm still working long hours. :( I thought it would get better when The Big Project was over, but I still seem to have way more work than I can do in the normal amount of hours. I am so exhausted. I have trouble sleeping, too. Because I'm worried about work and school and these stupid headaches.
I have to finish an essay today, then I plan to work on a recap/picspam. The weather is really cold, so it would be nice to stay inside. Then tomorrow, I'll try to get a bunch of work done. I love watching the Oscars and want to so much! I'll either record it or work while I'm watching. I can multitask like that withe work, but I can't with school work. Hence, i want to write my essay today.
I need to let go of something. I don't have a family. Everyone I know has someone--a mother, father, grandmother, aunt, cousin, sister, brother--someone who cares. That makes me so crazy. Yes, I have friends, but they have--yes--families. Even though I'm important, I'm second to their families. I always feel like I'm not worth loving, because I don't have what everyone else has. I need to let go of that, because it isn't going to change. Just make the best of what I have. Love myself. I don't understand why this happened in my life. It seems so unfair. One good thing: this is what made me fall in love with H50 and Ohana, which is what brought me to LJ, which is where I met some wonderful people!