Wow, I haven't posted since Christmas

[rocsfan]

Hello! Just some thinky-thoughts today. Nothing H50! But soon.....soon I shall be able to blog again. :)

I finish my master's degree at the end of May. That makes me say "wow"! My graduation is in June, and Amber said this week that she wants to come see me graduate!!!! I was flabbergasted. Filled with happiness and flabbergasted. I told her that

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[brightstarmara]

*Hugs* Sorry you are feeling so alone. I wish I could come to where ever you are and sit to watch you get that degree. BEcause that is freaking awesome.

Self worth is the hardest thing. Even people who have 'people' struggle with it. If I had the answer for you...

The one thing I do know is that it is a proces and a circle. THere isn't really an end. You want to be on the good side of the middle on the worthless-most precious thing ever to be. And that is hard. And the rules change. It's different for everybody.

I have parents who are amazing. But I still had no feeling of worth at all. At all. It's better now, but still...

Getting your degree means that you're somebody who hangs in there even if things get hard. THat's one thing. And you're thoughtfull and attentive. Even to people who don't even know.

I don't know if you're a list person or a journal person. But that might help. To make a visual reminder when you have one of those times...

[rocsfan]

*hugs* Thank you for your wonderful comment. It helps me so much to hear other people's stories and philosophies. I like that thought about the circle, and finding a spot on good side of the middle. That's a great image that helps me. And I appreciate the supportive comments, too! You're always quietly there, aren't you?

[kaige68]

You have always struck me as having a great sense of self. Well, always for only having 'known' you for a few years. But you're there, you're solid. You don't achieve your importance at the expense of others, and you work hard to always improve. You are ever evolving, and ever constant. If that makes any sense.

Having those people there, it doesn't establish self worth. Certainly not in my case. But even in general, there is the feeling that they have to tell you that you are pretty/smart/talented because it's the responsibility of family. It's not always the boon you might imagine.

But if you surround yourself with good people, people who cheer, hug, encourage, and have your back, like you have done, well... of course they want to watch you celebrate the goal you've worked so hard for. We're all very proud!

[rocsfan]

Thank you so much! I appreciate your input! It helps. It really does. I actually read this when you posted it, but I'm just now replying. You have such a great ability to encourage people. :) And you know, I agree with you that I don't make myself feel important by belittling other people. I respect them. I hadn't though about myself that way, but it's nice. Thank you!!

[superbadgirl]

For what it's worth, I had one attended graduation (high school). Not a one member of my family made it to my college graduation, didn't ever even plan on it, so I didn't go myself. :/

I ditto what others said, though. I think, too, sometimes - people not showing up has less to say about your worth and more to say about theirs. But I'm harsh like that.

And congrats on the upcoming commencement! :)

[rocsfan]

Thank you for this: "people not showing up has less to say about your worth and more to say about theirs. " That's a great insight, really. Realizing that people do things or don't do things because of their own needs or limitations. That makes it less hurtful. Thanks!

[haldoor]

Congratulations! That's so awesome!

It's hard to imagine being in the position of being so alone as to not think of yourself as important to anyone. Clearly, you are important to Amber (I don't know who she is to you, but she must think you're important!) and you just don't realise it, or she wouldn't be offering to come to your graduation. I hope others let you know that you're important to them too!

*hugs* and good luck for the future - do you know what you're going to do after graduation?

[rocsfan]

Hello! Thanks for the encouragement. :) You are one of the people I miss because I have so little time for LJ. I would love to get a new job that lets me use my new knowledge, but we'll see what's available! I still have my usual job, and that pays the bills. :)

[haldoor]

Oh God, I know how that is - I seem to have little pockets of time where I catch up, and then I fall behind again and don't make it back for ages. I miss you too, because you're always so upbeat and positive about things *hugs* Good luck with finding that 'new' job one day soon! ;-)