Breaking bread and whining wine

[rodent_bomb]

I never planned on picking up this lj crap again. But things have been...been

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[oh_have_mercyy]

You talk about getting the help you need, but at the first sign of prognosis and treatment you quit..?

[rodent_bomb]

i went, talked to a counselor and psychiatrist 4 times. each time i felt like i was lying to myself. it's about letting go of shit. I understand that this takes time, but it stressed me out. makes me feel like my life becomes ruled by it again by acknowledging it exists. and drugs arent the way i want to go. western medicine is ruled by it.
i'm going to try meditation. lord knows i could use it. less intrusive by humans and more central to me.