I should be angry...

[roguesword]

But I can't seem to manage it.  Don't know why.  Some people seem to be incapable of good decision making.  My brother managed to land a job framing houses again with more hours than he'd been able to get from the flooring company.  But he didn't have the tools he needed, and because he'd not been getting the hours he was too broke to buy them.  SO I come to the rescue... again.  Logically thinking that if I want my rent he needs to work, in order for him to work he needed tools.  So i bought him $150 worth of tools.   Then he gets this horrible respiratory infection that turns into bronchitis and leads to a week off and time in the ER and he looses his new job.  Knowing my  bro I tell him not to pawn his tools because we all know he'll need them again, and really they aren't his yet.  LIttle did I know I was a day too late.  So he gets his job back framing and has to come to me to fess up and ask to borrow the money he needs to get his tools out of pawn.  On top of all I have been doing for him.

So yeah, I paid to unpawn the tools I bought.  But instead of being angry I'm very nearly complacent about it.  And dumbfounded by the decision to pawn his tools.  That's like a fisherman pawning his rod and reel.  I just don't understand.

I know at some point I am going to have to draw the line.  Logically it's the right thing to do.  I just can't get next to the reality of it yet.