I feel like my world is gone, that my life has no meaning what so ever..I feel like nothing else in this world maters anymore and that I'm just here till I die..What is my purpose here? I'm not happy, I'm not even satisfied with my life anymore..I have a job, I make money, I go to college..but none of this matters..nothing matters more to me then ( Read more... )

Ok, so Thursday night I had a breakdown over stupid shit, just thinking about me and Jesse and what not, smoked my first ciggerette in months, went to a party that night tried to drive a bunch of rowdy drunks back home because they were just beyond fucking driving ability..and I alsmost got in a wreck.. I stopped the car on the side of the road and ( Read more... )

Today is absolutely crazy at work! Insannnnnnnne.. I miss Jesse.. We are still kind of seperated.. for the time being and I haven't talked to him for over a week now..it's kinda weird between us.. I dunno what's going to happen.. but only time can tell ( Read more... )

Today, I'm in VA, my aunt came down Friday morning and I left with her, Friday afternoon. I'm only staying here till tomorrow afternoon, I'll be back by Sunday night, Monday morning. I forgot how much this place means to me. I love it here..and just, everything, the people, the family, the beach... it's beautiful ( Read more... )

Before I start out saying anything, I wold like to wish my mom a happy birthday. I love you mom ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven't updated in a long time, it's not like me to just leave and not update ( Read more... )

Today was is so busy at work.. omfg.. I'm on my break right now and I'm like BEAT! yeah I'm going to have to start updating during the day at work because when I get home I have no time to even do it.. I barely have time to spend with Jesse anymore.. I have to go to the beach with him this Sunday and meet the rest of his family.. WOOOHOO, yeah my ( Read more... )

Yes that's right homo's!..anyways! Todays Sunday, and Sunday is, you guessed it, Me and Jesse's day ( Read more... )

Today was really good. I had a really good day at work. I finished my report on Excel and they were amazed by the good job I did. These people know nothing about computers, so to them I am God.. lol.. it's funny, they love me they really love me ( Read more... )