Comments | rolfharrisbeard: For LAUREN... And For Myself.

rolfharrisbeard

For LAUREN... And For Myself.

Oct 21, 2007 18:56

I have just been thinking about how hard I tried last year to fit into a group of people I tried so hard to like. How most of them basically ignored me. How I was never really invited to anything they did by anybody except Cunny, and yet I still turned up, time after time, with a smile on my face, just TRYING SO GODDAMNED HARD. I mean, I'll give ( Read more... )

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girlwhoranaway October 22 2007, 19:58:15 UTC

I just spend about 1/2 hour writing you a response...then deleted it. =[

I'l try again 2mo
xx

girlwhoranaway October 26 2007, 01:10:29 UTC

Take 2. Now that I have a moment.

We know my attitude to Drama. It stinks. I get invited to parties & I don't go 'cause the truth is, last year at least, I found the Drama parties painfully boring.
HOWEVER, if you're at a Drama party, I wanna be there too 'cause you're one of my all time Drama-favourites. So from now on, DRAG MY ASS THERE. Show me what I've supposedly been missing.

Secondly, I don't try to fit in with my Uni girls. I am different to them, I'm much more of a tomboy. I don't like Dirty Dancing or Pretty Woman, I do like football & male company and I prefer indie to dance anyday.
However THIS is my struggle: to be myself and still get on with them & appreciate that they like different things to me and not let their differences annoy me or make me feel excluded, even though Pretty Woman is shit ( ... )

rolfharrisbeard October 26 2007, 10:32:07 UTC

Drama parties, as a general rule, aren't laugh-a-minute stuff, but I have found now that it's what you make of them. If you and I went along with loadsa alcohol, got sloshed and had a laugh, that instantly makes the party... ooh... ten times better. I'll definitely be inviting you my love, you are one of my favourites too.

Just to be clear, I wasn't suggesting that YOU try to fit in. that was just my story. Get your own! Asshole. ;-)

But the other stuff, the spreading yourself too thinly and such. That I completely understand and respect. You are spot on.

BUT do remember, this is my third year, and I knew Cunny's lot from Day One. After two years of this shit, I just thought 'Right, that's enough', and made a clean break. I very much doubt you will ever have to do the same, to be honest, but it's just the knowing that I can spread myself. You know? It made me feel so much goddamned better.

Well, until one of my mates introduced me to her boyfriend as 'Steph's Girlfriend'. That was a low point.

saturrrday November 18 2007, 22:47:41 UTC

WHO DID THAT?!

saturrrday November 18 2007, 22:48:12 UTC

...my sarcasm RELLLY didn't come across there, did it?

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