all this is very nice to acknowledge, might make you upset but you can get over it by yourself, by JUST be-ing yourself
"and i cannot muster the energy to work hard enough on it to solve it. i get lazy. i want to eat. i want to get drunk. i want to smoke. too much. it's easy. sometimes i think about what i've come through, and i wonder why i can't finish. i wonder if i've just used all my energy up.." i felt this too from time to time. so i gave up smoking [for good] and drinking [for a long while] i feel so much better right now.
but dunno if i could keep up the exercise/research combo. new haven's just a bit too much sometimes
yeah. both exercising and researching are mentally taxing. there's always a point where i wake up and am like fuck it. but i think the important thing for me is to stay positive through that and realize that i just need a rest, not take it as a falling apart of something.
a strcit masturbation schedule helps me cope. but as it gets hotter I fear that the combination of sweat and friction will cause me to develop another "benign cyst" on my cock, like last year. at least it wasn't herpes. yea, whenever you feel down just remember, you could have vd. and if you do have vd, well then im sorry for fucking you up even more....
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"and i cannot muster the energy to work hard enough on it to solve it. i get lazy. i want to eat. i want to get drunk. i want to smoke. too much. it's easy. sometimes i think about what i've come through, and i wonder why i can't finish. i wonder if i've just used all my energy up.." i felt this too from time to time. so i gave up smoking [for good] and drinking [for a long while] i feel so much better right now.
but dunno if i could keep up the exercise/research combo. new haven's just a bit too much sometimes
lov,
Naz
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anyway, thanks
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wait wait, you masturbated yourself a calus on your cock?? what a pro.
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