No day like today...

[romaine]

I've been given a chance to rebuild something very special. Something that once meant the world to me but that I destroyed in a fit of anger and pride. I would like to think that I have grown immensely since that time in my life. That I am now worthy of such a truly wonderful gift. We aren't given second chances often in life so when we are they

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Romaine - what do you want?

[anonymous]

What are you looking for from this girl you fucked over? What are you looking for from Canary? People care about you - you are so lucky - why wouldn't they? You are really a great person; dynamic and funny and smart; almost famous (correction: 78000 hits in a yahoo search engine make you famous I guess). What are you looking for in a relationship?

Re: Romaine - what do you want?

[romaine]

I don't know that I am "looking" for anything from any relationship. I really try not to have big expectations. I simply try to enjoy them for what they are. I'm not looking for anything from this friend from my past. But I do hope we will have a chance to rebuild the relationship we once had. She was once very important to me. And if we can't I understand that too.

As for Canary...well she knows who and what she is in my life and understands my terms on our relationship. We are looking for the same thing in each other and I think we found it. ;o)

You are right though. I am very lucky. I have been given a great number of gifts in life. Wonderful relationships and friends. I am thankful for all of those things. Don't know if that helps anwer any of your questions.

Re: Romaine - what do you want?

[anonymous]

Yes - thanks for the insight. You are very different than I am in matters of the heart and your ability to be OK with the joy of the moment - not needing to know where the road goes...that probably means you are secure or something.

I guess your blog stuck a cord with me because I've got a 'lack of resolution' name out there, but I can't get back involved; way too much pain to revisit old wounds. If she showed up in my email inbin - I'd poop my pants (in a bad way..not that there's a good way to poop your pants). But isn't it a shame to live with that weighty fear of that contact (years and years later)? I envy your desire to resolve things and that you both seem OK and ready to move past the hurt. I guess I wanted to make sure before YOU revisit this situation, you as thought about where it might lead.

Thanks for the thought provoking blogs....