I need to go on a fast... I haven't been on one in quite a while... I guess I haven't got the strength. You know... all this shit is stressing me out way too much. I actually miss it... having that empty feelings.

............. bye.

So's... I went to the library today.. and got Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix... as soon as I'm off the computer... I'm getting started on that book... 870 pages... shouldn't take me anymore than a week ( Read more... )

I finished Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire at 4:40 AM this morning lol... I didn't want to stop ( Read more... )

I'm sick of this shit... why can't I just stop eating??? I eat when I'm not even hungry... there's something seriously wrong with that...

no more food.

My stomach has been looking extra small the past few days, even tho I've been maintaing a weight of 139/140... it even looks better than when I was 135... **clap ( Read more... )

So... I woke up about 10-15 min. ago... and I tried eating an apple.. but there was just something about it... so I threw it away. And I haven't eaten anything yet. I'm really hungry, but I don't want to eat anything full of calories or fat and all that jazz... hmmm....

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Today was a very emotional day for me... it was the last day of middle school... and I cried alot. Because Im never going to see half the people that went to Madison. And I'm just going to miss them so much. I've known most of them for 3 years... and now... we're all going to be separated. It really sucks... middle school went by super fast... I ( Read more... )

Fat Piece of Lard ( Read more... )

I need/have to lose 10-15 pounds by August!! Not only for myself, but to show everyone how different I've become. I don't want to be the same as I am now. Highschool is a differnt place, with dramatic changes, and everything is just not the same as middle school. Bigger place, more people, more criticism. I know I'm going to hate it, but I think it ( Read more... )

So, I guess this so-called fast is going pretty well. I haven't eaten since 9:45 PM last night... but was tempted to eat a graham cracker this morning. But no... I had a few sips of my mom's coffee, and for lunch I think I might just have water. And about dinner... I just have to resist. It's all about control. And if I fail this, I know I have ( Read more... )