Dir en grey - Kaoru/Kyo - A Little Hitch - 15/18
Title: A Little Hitch
Author: shuichin or Shuichi
Genre: Angst/Romance/Humor
Pairings: Kaoru x Kyo, various others
Rating: NC-17
Summary: AU. Crossover. When a new client comes to Kaoru for relationship help, the "date doctor" needs to learn the differences between lust and love.
Notes: N/A
Part 15: Gackt-sama Speaks
Rain splattered on the windshield and my hand trembled as I reached over to turn on the wipers. I wasn't even paying attention to where I was going. My mind was too busy anxiously asking question after question. Should I really be doing this? Kyo's happy with Gackt... Will he even believe me if I tell him what I know? What if I lose control again? I don't want to hurt Kyo... I heaved a long sigh and rubbed my forehead. The angst was killing me.
In no time at all I had reached Gackt's mansion. I got out and was surprised to find the gate open. I cautiously went up the driveway and to the door, where I knocked as loudly as my numb hands would allow me to. The rain was getting worse. September in Japan was very, very wet.
The door creaked open and Kyo stood before me, his eyes wide. "Kaoru? What are you doing here?" He asked, and was there nervousness in his tone?
"I need to tell you something. Can I come inside for a bit? It's f-freezing out here," I said, shuddering in the chill.
Kyo eyed me for a while, and then must have had pity on my shivering form, for he held the door open all the way and allowed me entrance. He brought me to the same parlor I'd been at the previous night. A sickly feeling was in my stomach as I recalled pinning him to that couch against his will... His scared eyes flashed before my vision and I distinctly recalled that whispered, "I hate you, Kaoru." I shuddered violently.
"Kaoru? Damn, you must be really cold. Hang on, I'll get you a change of clothes. Yours are soaked!"
He left the room. I crept as close to the fire as I dared and rubbed my hands together. In a few minutes he returned with a sweatshirt and a pair of jeans. "They're Gackt's...I figured you wouldn't want to wear any of his thongs, so you can just go commando."
I took the clothes and offered him a grateful smile. He knew me pretty well.
In a few seconds I was dressed in the dry clothes and my wet ones were hanging by the fire. Kyo sat down on the couch and I sat down on the chair. I'd be damned if I was going to sit on the couch with him after what happened the other night.
"So what's up? Something with Shukumei?" Kyo asked, grabbing a blanket from underneath the couch and cuddling underneath it.
"Kawaii," I whispered, grinning at him.
"What?" He asked.
"Oh...nothing. I just coughed," I lied.
He nodded. "Well?"
I swallowed. "Right. I'll just get straight to the point. Ken was having a poker party and while I was there--"
"Who is Ken and why the fuck is this relevant?" Kyo interrupted, eyebrows raised.
"Ken is the guitarist in L'Arc~en~Ciel and he hired me to hook him up with Tetsu, the bassist. But anyway, so I was--"
"Are you sure you ever hook men up with women?"
I smiled. I was reminded so much of when I first met Kyo and he asked me all of these sarcastic questions about my profession. I couldn't help what I said next. "It reminds me of when we first met."
He hiked a brow. "What?"
"You know...you were asking me all of these questions about my profession and making fun of me and stuff..." I sighed wistfully.
Kyo offered me a half-smile. "Yeah, it was fun. So what about this poker party?"
I nodded. "Right, right. Well, you know Hyde was in Moon Child with Gackt, right?" Kyo gave a nod of affirmation, so I continued. "Well, he was there and we were talking and he told me that the other day Gackt called him and asked him if they could make love on the beach, or something else really gay like that. I guess that Gackt would dump you the moment Hyde says he'll be with him." I held my breath, hoping he believed me.
He chuckled. Well, that was a good sign. If he didn't believe me he would have already nailed me to the ceiling by my nose hairs. Laughter was a good sign. "Oh, Kaoru," he said, "is that all you came here to tell me? Because I already know."
My jaw dropped. "What!? You...you know all about--wait! Are you mocking me?"
He burst into laughter. When it subsided, he shook his head in light amusement. "Of course not. Look, when we decided to date, Gackt told me that he was waiting for Hyde. He said that if Hyde would be with him, he didn't want to be with anyone else and asked me if that was okay. I said it was. He's doubtful Hyde will be with him anyway, since he's married and all. And making love on the beach isn't gay, you dumbass."
I blinked. Several seconds passed before I found an answer. "So I'm a dumbass now? I guess that's an improvement...I used to be an asshole, a son of a bitch, an insensitive jerk, and a lot of other really foul things. I guess if I'm a dumbass it just means I'm stupid... Hell, ignorance is bliss, right?"
I could have swore I saw a tiny twinkle in Kyo's eyes, but when I blinked it was gone. He smiled, though, that was obvious. "Yeah, but ignorance isn't stupidity."
I shrugged. "How the hell should I know? I'm the dumbass."
He chortled and leaned his head against his blanket-clad hands. The effect almost made me flail my arms wildly and screech, "Wai! Wai!" He was still smiling, too, which made it even better. "You're so funny, Kaoru. I miss hanging out with you."
I smiled sadly. "Yeah, I miss hanging out with you, too. You're so cute."
He narrowed his eyes and stuck his tongue out. "Meanie."
I laughed. "I can call names, too! You...bedbug, you!"
Kyo laughed loudly at that and just squirmed further beneath the blankets so that only his eyes peeked up at me. I tapped my chin. "Hm...if I remember right you were always kind of ticklish, too..."
His eyes widened and his head shook, but I pounced on him anyway, finding his sides and tickling. He shrieked in a very un-Kyo-like way and sought refuge beneath the covers. I just laughed triumphantly and kept tickling, finding all the places I knew made him laugh the most. "Say Uncle!" I exclaimed, poking him right below the ribcage.
"Never!" The giggling blanket answered.
"Very well! Then face my wrath!" I exclaimed dramatically.
I pinned him to the couch and sat on him so he couldn't go anywhere. My tickling increased and his laughter grew louder. "O--okay! Uncle! Uncle!" He gasped.
So I removed my hands, resting them on my thighs. The laughs faded out and the blanket wiggled as he found the edge and pulled it down so I could see his flushed face. He grinned toothily and I bit my lip. "I love your smile," I whispered.
He reddened even more somehow. "Gackt's paying for me to see the best orthodontist in Tokyo."
My brow furrowed. "But why? You don't need to."
He laughed slightly and looked down at his hands that were fingering the blanket. "Of course I do...you've seen my teeth, Kaoru..."
I bent down so our faces were close, which caused him to look up at me. I smiled. "You're right, I have. And I think they're perfect."
His adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed. And then our lips met. I didn't even realize we had both inched closer until they were touching. My hands stayed on my thighs and his were still clutching the blanket. We just kissed. Sweet, simple. Our mouths never opened. There was no hungry gasping or frantic groping...just a simple, pure kiss. I pulled back and smiled apologetically. "You're perfect."
He stared at me, lips parted and face flushed beautifully. I finally moved one of my hands to stroke his cheek. He brought his hands up to my thighs, and found one of my hands with his, gripping it tightly. "Kaoru, I...I wish..."
"It had never happened?" I supplied.
He nodded. "Yeah...I wish we could go back."
My lips trembled and I took both of his hands in mine. "We can," I whispered.
He smiled. "Things would never be the same."
I swallowed. "No, but we could start new."
"I don't want to. I want things to be the way they were. I wish you'd never told me you were making love to Miyavi. Because you're right--ignorance is bliss."
Damnit! The tears were threatening to spill from my eyes again. I squeezed his hands tighter. "Please...we can take a long vacation to New York City or something...and forget about everything that happened. I'll take you to Carnegie Hall and we'll see the Statue of Liberty and--"
Kyo pulled his hand away and reached up to cup my face. I closed my eyes and leaned into his touch. "That's not what I'm looking for," he said softly.
My eyes snapped open. "You're...looking for something?"
He nodded. "Yep. Something from you."
"And then you'd...you'd come back to me?"
He nodded again, this time a smile playing on his face. I stared at him in shock. "But--but I thought you said--you made a vow to never--"
"I've never been very good at keeping my promises."
I think five minutes went by where I was just staring at him. Then I laughed and bent my head to kiss him again. I kissed him again, and again, and again...each sweet kiss getting longer. Before I knew it, our tongues were wrestling passionately. He was stroking my thighs. I was using one hand to gently tug on his soft, blonde tendrils, while the other one had snaked up his shirt and was teasing his nipples. He slowly sat up and suddenly I was on my back and he was straddling me. He furiously unbuttoned my shirt. "Kaoru...I miss you so much. I want your dick inside of me again."
My mouth dropped open. "But Gackt--"
He silenced me with a kiss, his hands fumbling with the zipper on my pants. His kisses moved lower and lower; his tongue slid erotically down my abdomen. I arched my back to his touch. "But, Kyo..." I breathed. "What about--"
He pulled my pants down to my knees and then undid his own pants and slipped them off, along with his boxers. "He thinks one more time would be good for closure...he's completely okay with it."
"And you--"
My train of thought derailed when he positioned himself on top of me and guided my throbbing member into his tight entrance. I gasped and gripped his thighs tightly. "Oh god, Kyo...Kyo, I love you," I choked out, pleasure running through my veins.
"Kaoru!" He whimpered, resting his hands on my chest and starting a rhythm.
I groaned as he moved up and down around me. I found his cock and wrapped my hand around it, pumping it steadily. He moaned and arched his back. I quickened my movements. "Come on, baby, match me here..." I breathed.
He nodded and moved faster, trying to keep up with my hand. Watching his body moving above me, seeing the glistening sweat all over his toned chest nearly caused me to come, but I held back, furiously pumping his member. He panted and cried out, moving faster, rocking hard against me. "Ohh...oh, Kaoru...I'm coming! I'm--I'm coming! KAORU!" He spilled his seed all over my palm, and it dripped onto my chest.
When his muscles clenched around me, it sent me over the edge and I belted out, "I love you!" as I filled him.
He fell on top of me and immediately kissed me, his tongue darting into my mouth. I extracted myself from him and then just held him close to me, wishing the night would never end. I pulled the blankets over us. The last thing I remembered hearing before I drifted into a peaceful sleep, was a whispered, "I love you, too."
When I awoke the next morning, my eyes stayed shut for a moment longer, and I savored the feel of Kyo's hair between my fingers...the steady beating of his heart against my own. I sighed contentedly, running my hand through his hair and down his perfect back. "Oh, Kyo..." I murmured.
I opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was Gackt, sitting in the chair, his legs crossed and--why the hell was he wearing sunglasses? Then I realized that I was naked on a couch with his boyfriend. For a split second I felt triumph. Then I panicked. Gackt could beat me up.
I sat up quickly. "This isn't how it looks!" I exclaimed stupidly.
He brought his forefinger over his lips. "Shhh. You'll wake Kyo-kun."
I blinked. "Eh?"
He smiled. "How are you doing this morning, Kaoru-san?"
I blinked again. "Eh?"
He sighed and leaned forward. "How. Are. You. Doing. This. Morning. Kaoru-san?"
"You aren't mad?" I gasped. "I just slept with your lover! We had erotic, sweaty mansex on your sofa! You should be pissed!"
He chuckled. "Oh, Kaoru-san...I understand your need for Kyo. He is an excellent lover, isn't he? At any rate, I think having one last pleasurable night with him is what you needed to feel completion in your relationship. Now you can happily move on with your life and find someone else to love."
I stared at him. "That is the stupidest thing I have ever heard. Having sex with Kyo again just makes me want to do it one more time and then one more time and then one more time...it's an endless cycle."
He shook his head. "Tut, tut, tut. Is sex the only thing on your mind? I'll agree that it is a wonderful thing, given as a gift to mankind, but it should not be the only aspect of the relationship worth keeping alive. Of course, sex is very special to me, as it saved my life once. It's a fascinating story, would you like to hear it?"
I was gaping, I won't deny it. Lucky for me, Kyo groaned and stretched his arms, sleepily cracking open his eyes. He looked at me and smiled. Then he turned his head and saw Gackt and his eyes widened. "Gackun!"
Gackt grinned. "Ah, goodmorning, my sweet dove of heaven."
I threw up in my mouth a little. What was even more sickening, is that Kyo would actually let someone call him that. I looked at the little man on the couch beside me. He just smiled at Gackt and then bent and fumbled on the floor for his boxers. "Ne, Gackt, I had sex with another man. Are you mad?"
Gackt shook his head. "Definitely not. Assuming, of course, that this was your last time with Kaoru-san?"
Kyo found his boxers and looked over at me. "Of course." Then he looked at Gackt. "Assuming, of course, that we stay together forever."
Gackt chuckled. "Only Time can see what Fate will bring," he said all creepy-fortune teller-like.
"So who's Time? I mean, I know Fate. He's five foot nine and is almost certifiably insane," I joked, laughing manically.
Kyo and Gackt just stared at me and I realized they didn't get it because they didn't know that Yoshiki kept having fateful encounters with me. I immediately shut my trap and vowed never to open it again.
As you might have guessed, I broke my vow.
Anyway, when Kyo had gotten his boxers on he got up and walked over to Gackt, plopping himself on the taller man's lap. I was royally pissed. He had just had sex with me. Now who was the cheating dirtbag!? I crossed my arms over my chest. "Uh, you just had sex with me. How can you act so nonchalant with Gackt?" I asked, seething.
He blinked at me. "I thought we already talked about this. The sex was for closure. Or did you forget that I'm dating Gackt?"
"You little bitch!" I exclaimed, unable to control myself. "You are the one who fucking started it all! If I didn't know any better I'd say you weren't pleased with Gackt! I'd say you want to get back with me!" I straightened my shoulders in triumph.
Kyo raised an eyebrow and then burst into laughter. "Oh, Kaoru, you really are funny! Gackt not pleasing me? HAHAHAHAHA! That's a good one!"
I glared at him. "You don't have to rub it in my face, damnit."
He grinned evilly. "You mean like this?"
He turned around so he was facing Gackt and removed his sunglasses, then leaned forward and kissed his nose. My insides turned to ice. "Okay, I get it," I mumbled.
"Hm, did you hear something, Gackun?" Kyo asked, sliding his arms sensually up Gackt's chest.
Gackt gave a short nod, resting his hands on the small of Kyo's back. "Most certainly. Kaoru-san just said--"
Kyo silenced him with a kiss. And he moaned. He freaking moaned. I stomped my foot. "ALRIGHT ALREADY!" I screeched.
Kyo broke the kiss and laughed devilishly as he got up. "I'm gonna shower."
And with that he left. I stared after him, feeling a mixture of love, frustration, and impressiveness.
Gackt stood and put his sunglasses back on. "Come; I'll see you out, Kaoru-san."
I awkwardly changed back into my now-dry clothes, trying to ignore him watching me. Then I grudgingly allowed him to escort me from the building. When I'd stepped outside I turned to face him. "You won't have Kyo forever, I'll see to that. Oh, and by the way: he still loves me!"
Gackt smiled. "I don't doubt that. But have you ever thought that it's the thought of you he loves?"
I hiked a brow. "What the hell are you talking about?"
He sighed and rubbed his forehead. "Kyo loves the thought of you. He loves the thought of being with you again. He loves remembering the good times you shared. I'm not so sure he loves you at the moment, though. Sex doesn't prove anything. He won't be able to love you unless you can give him a reason to again, which so far you haven't really done. In the meantime, he's quite happy with me. He makes me breakfast, which is something none of my past lovers have done. And just last week he started telling me that he loves me. He never did before. To a man like me, that says something. What does it say to you? Undoubtedly, that he really does love me."
"Would you shut the fuck up?!" I glared at him. "Look, you think you know all about Kyo, but you don't. You're just--"
"No," Gackt boomed, causing me to take a step backward, "you are the one who assumes too much, Kaoru-san. Did Kyo tell you that he didn't really mind your act of rape?"
"Yes," I said, my brow crinkled.
He smiled slightly. "He would never tell you the truth about something like that, would he? He's embarrassed and disappointed. It hurt him deeply, Kaoru-san. Not so much because someone was trying to rape him, but because the someone was you. He told me that, of all the people in the world to be capable of rape he would have thought you least likely."
"You don't know what Kyo thinks!" I spat, tears surfacing in my eyes. "You--"
"Who is the one who held him close after you left? It was I. Who listened to him relay all of his fears, doubts, and insecurities? It was I. Who hears him crying in his sleep at night? I do. I think there's more to Kyo than you think there is. You seem to see him as a cute child, a comforting presence, a nice piece of ass. If you dwell on one aspect of him, you miss out on the rest of him. You don't see who he really is."
I was shaking with anger. "How dare you try to tell me that I don't know Kyo. I do, too! We lived together for almost four months! I learned a lot about him in that time!"
He shook his head. "Kaoru-san, tell me his greatest fear."
I blinked. "What?"
"Tell me what he fears the most."
I stared at him. I stared at him for a long time, trying to find an answer. But I couldn't. I didn't know Kyo's greatest fear. I knew of some things he was afraid of, for instance, daddy long-leg spiders scared him half to death. It was an interesting fear that he couldn't even explain. He just didn't like them. But surely that couldn't be his greatest fear. "D-daddy long-legs?" I gave it a go.
He shook his head slowly. "His greatest fear is rejection."
"Rejection?"
"Growing up he was rejected to be on the school soccer team because his legs were too short. He was rejected by the first girl he asked out. When he applied for colleges, all of them rejected him. He found his girlfriend cheating on him and saw that as another form of rejection. And then his worst fear became very real again when you, too, cheated on him."
I swallowed repeatedly. I didn't want him to tell me this. But at the same time...I did. And I wondered why I had never thought to talk to Kyo about this kind of thing. I didn't even know he'd tried out for soccer when he was young. Could I have really been so selfish in our relationship that I didn't care about his fears--just my own? Yes, a voice in my head answered me. "And...what are his doubts?" I asked, completely shocked that I was pursuing this conversation with Gackt of all people.
"Right now his greatest doubt is in his relationship with me," he said, with a hint of a smile. "He's had so many foul relationships in the past that he refuses to have faith in this one. But he has more doubts. He has doubts in himself, in his own capabilities. He has strong doubts in the stability of the shinkansen system."
My mouth fell open. "He's afraid to ride the bullet train?"
He gave a slight nod. "I don't call it fear, necessarily. He just doesn't trust them. But hadn't you known that he's never been on one since he was fourteen?"
I shook my head, my heart sinking lower with everything I didn't know.
Gackt nodded. "Yes, when he was fourteen he was riding from Kyoto to Tokyo and they suffered technical difficulties. It was not a huge problem, the train just shut down completely for an hour or two, but he's never trusted them since."
I swallowed and ran my hand through my hair. "And...and his insecurities?"
Gackt removed his sunglasses and I could see the unmistakable sadness in his eyes. "Himself."
"What?" I gasped.
"You and I both know that Kyo is a wonderful person with many capabilities and talents. But he doesn't know that. He has no self-esteem, Kaoru-san. He's insecure about his smile, his nose, his height, his hands, his hair, his chest, his penis... He doesn't think he's a very good cop. He dislikes his personality and all the aspects of his character. He doesn't believe he's satisfying in the bedroom."
I shook my head. "No, no...he is an animal in the bedroom. How can he be thinking such things?"
Gackt sighed. "He's grown up believing them. We hate to admit it, but our childhoods impact our entire lives. Kyo's just impacted him in a very negative way." Suddenly his steel blue gaze turned to a glare. "And you have done nothing to help him. You have only made him feel worse about himself. I pretend to be very calm and unconcerned in front of the public, but I care very much for people, Kaoru-san. And right now, Kyo is the most important person in my life. I know that you don't want to believe that. I know you want to pretend that nothing happened. But the reality is that you messed up and now Kyo is with me."
I blinked. I had taken another step back during that speech, as he'd taken a step forward. I swallowed. "Do you think you're helping his self-image by telling him he needs braces?"
Gackt snarled at me. I kid you not, he snarled. I bet you didn't know he had it in him. "Again, you assume too much. I told Kyo his teeth were fine how they were, that they gave him a beauty no one else could possess. But he can't help the way he feels everytime he looks in a mirror. He asked me if I knew of any good orthodontists. I told him if he wanted to have work done to his teeth, I would gladly pay for it."
I glared at him. "How do I know you aren't lying to me about all of this?"
He chuckled. "Oh, I never lie."
I blinked. "Yeah, like you're really 400 years old!"
He shook his head. "No, I'm 465."
I sighed and turned around. "Whatever, man. Whatever."
"Kaoru-san," he called.
I faced him once more. "Yeah?"
"Kyo is mine now, and I will fight for him. But you need to fight back. I still think you love him, though that's become one of his doubts. You have to prove it. Love is far more than three simple words. I can assure you that Kyo and I are in love right now. And you don't stand a chance against me." He smiled his dazzling smile.
I could have killed him if I wasn't so afraid that he'd dislocate my arm or something. I opted for verbal abuse instead. "You bastard."
He retained his breathtaking smile. "I don't say this to be mean, Kaoru-san. I say it to inspire you. I suppose you've heard that it's not the size of the dog in the fight, but the size of the fight in the dog. My magnum is three times the size of yours, but I don't think Kyo is looking for a big dick."
My jaw dropped and I could only stare. Was Gackt trying to...encourage me? No possible way. I had immediately made myself believe we were nemesis, from the moment I saw the man walking into the apartment with Kyo. I guess he didn't see it that way. Of course, I still didn't like him. I mean, he was weird, perfect, and he was absolutely right about his "magnum," but I had to be a little bit grateful. Because of our conversation, I had an insatiable hunger to win the fight against him.
I smiled. It was about the only thanks he was going to get from me. "Of course, you know this means war," I said boldly.
He continued smiling and gave a nod, putting his sunglasses back on. "Excellent. I await your first battle strategy, Kaoru-san. Have a good day."
He walked back into the mansion and shut the door behind him. I stared at the door for a whole minute, trying to fathom the enigma that was Gackt, and upon failing finally went on my way.
* * * * *
Kyo came out of the bathroom wearing nothing but boxers and plopped on his and Gackt's bed, where Itami-chan was happily snoozing on a fluffy pillow. She made a soft sound and cracked her eyes open slightly as his weight descended on the bed. He stroked her fur and she immediately began purring, her eyes slipping shut. "Kaoru and I had sex last night, Itami-chan," he said softly. "It felt good. Not because Kaoru's a sex machine or anything, but just because it was with him. Am I stupid to keep pushing him away?"
"Of course not," came a sultry voice from the doorway.
He turned and offered a half-smile to Gackt as he entered the room and took a seat on the bed. "You're not stupid, Kyo."
Kyo nodded and turned his attention back to his cat. "I-I know that, but...Gackt, I know we're together and all, but I still...I still love him so much." He planted his face in Itami-chan's fur, which smelled strongly of Platinum Egoiste.
Gackt reached over and gingerly threaded his fingers in Kyo's hair. "I know. I have a nose for things pertaining to love. It's quite obvious, in fact."
Kyo sat up and faced Gackt. "I'm sorry. I'm a shitty lover. I'm still in love with my old boyfriend, I had sex with him last night, and I orgasm too soon..."
Gackt smiled and stroked his cheek. "Don't be silly, silly. You have two handsome men fighting to win your affection."
Kyo blushed deeply and ducked his head. "Is he...did he say--"
"He told me we were at war."
Kyo smiled and rested his chin on his knees, wrapping his arms around himself to hide the blush that was still present in his cheeks. "Oh. But still...do you think it's stupid for me to keep pushing him away?"
"Not necessarily. Kaoru-san is an interesting person," Gackt replied, rubbing his chin in thought. "He doesn't seem to completely understand you or what exactly he feels for you. I would hate for you to accept him back into your embrace too quickly, only to have him relentlessly put you through the same struggle once again. Love knows no time or boundaries... If he truly loves you, he will keep fighting for you for years."
Kyo nodded. "I guess that makes sense... Thanks, Gackun." He bashfully hugged Gackt.
Gackt smiled and stroked his back. "Can I just ask you one question, Kyo? And please know that you don't need to answer right now if you don't want to."
"Yes?" Kyo said to Gackt's chest.
"Do you love me?"
For several seconds the only sound in the room came from Itami-chan as she purred with the consistency of a motorboat. Finally Kyo unstuck himself from Gackt and gave a small nod. "Yes." He laughed. "That makes me even more of an asshole. I love two men." He sighed and ran his hands through his hair irritably.
Gackt smiled broadly. "No, it just makes everything that much more interesting." He pulled Kyo back into his arms. "That being said, I have one more question to ask you, my dearest angel of beauty."
Kyo stifled a laugh at the endearment, but his heartbeat quickened at Gackt's husky tone. "Yes?" He meeped, drawing circles on Gackt's flowy shirt with his finger.
"Would you like me to make you some curry?"
All thoughts of being chained to the bed while a naked Gackt crawled seductively over him went right out the window. He laughed and shook his head. "Sure. I like curry."
Gackt kissed the top of his head and bounced up. "Wonderful! I'll go prepare!" He exclaimed, already pulling his shirt off as he danced out the door.
Kyo sighed and chortled to himself as he scooped up Itami-chan, waking her fully from her happy catnap. "I am so glad Kaoru doesn't cook naked. That would seriously weird me out," he said to her.
She just yawned. He brought her up to his face and once again breathed in her cologne-drenched scent. "God, Itami-chan, you have to go easy on Gackt's perfume. You're making me horny." He snickered.
"Nyan!" She teased, licking her paw.
"I knew you'd say that."
Go to Part 16.
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Notes: 1) I do believe September is when the rainy season begins in Japan, but I can't remember exactly. And I was too lazy to do research this time. Do feel free to correct me if I'm wrong.
2) Thong reference! \^^/
3) The KaoruxKyo moment was very needed. They hadn't screwed since part 7 or something. And I didn't really write that one out.
4) If you read Gackt's autobiography he does talk about a time where thinking about sex saved his life. I can't really remember the chapter as it's been awhile since I've read it, but it's there. ^^;;
5) In regards to Gackt and Kyo's relationship... It's getting stronger with the time they spend together and each passing idiotic moment of Kaoru's. At the same time it's a very mysterious relationship because you're not entirely trusting of Gackt (at least I assume), and it's very obvious that Kyo is still very much in love with Kaoru. And it's probably the weirdest relationship I have ever seen. Honestly, who would ever let their boyfriend sleep with his ex? Gackt. I know.
6) I'm actually not sure of Yoshiki's height, but he couldn't be too tall. I mean, hide was the shortest in the band and he wasn't too much taller than him... Just an estimated guess on my part. Truthfully, I don't really care if I have Yoshiki's correct height or not. It's not like this is getting graded, right? *looks around suspiciously*
7) I'm curious to know what you guys think of Gackt after his and Kaoru's conversation. I want it very clear that he's not the bad guy, here. I picture him as secretly intelligent, pretending to be dimwitted; secretly a genuinely good guy, pretending to be vain; secretly insane, pretending to be a sane man, pretending to be insane. I'm sure you understand.
8) I rewrote the conversation between Gackt and Kyo three times. I had to get it just right because it's really an integral part of the story. A turning point, if you will.
9) Shinkansen = bullet trains
10) Gackt claims his birthdate is July 4, 1540. If you do the math then he's turning 465 next month. Remember that the story takes place in September, after his birthday.
11) Heh, the first thing I wanted to say when Kaoru says "Was Gackt trying to...encourage me?" was "He sure had a funny way of doing it." But I couldn't fit it in there without making the whole paragraph crap, so I'm telling it to you here instead. XD
12) "Of course, you know this means war," stolen from the Looney Tunes. All hail Daffy Duck!
13) I wish my cat smelled like Gackt's cologne. ♥_♥
14) I am making way too many notes, but this just has to be said. Right after Kyo says that he loves two men, when Gackt says, "It just makes everything that much more interesting." That pretty much sums up the entire story. ^^;; I should write soap operas for a living. ~_~
Author: shuichin or Shuichi
Genre: Angst/Romance/Humor
Pairings: Kaoru x Kyo, various others
Rating: NC-17
Summary: AU. Crossover. When a new client comes to Kaoru for relationship help, the "date doctor" needs to learn the differences between lust and love.
Notes: N/A
Part 15: Gackt-sama Speaks
Rain splattered on the windshield and my hand trembled as I reached over to turn on the wipers. I wasn't even paying attention to where I was going. My mind was too busy anxiously asking question after question. Should I really be doing this? Kyo's happy with Gackt... Will he even believe me if I tell him what I know? What if I lose control again? I don't want to hurt Kyo... I heaved a long sigh and rubbed my forehead. The angst was killing me.
In no time at all I had reached Gackt's mansion. I got out and was surprised to find the gate open. I cautiously went up the driveway and to the door, where I knocked as loudly as my numb hands would allow me to. The rain was getting worse. September in Japan was very, very wet.
The door creaked open and Kyo stood before me, his eyes wide. "Kaoru? What are you doing here?" He asked, and was there nervousness in his tone?
"I need to tell you something. Can I come inside for a bit? It's f-freezing out here," I said, shuddering in the chill.
Kyo eyed me for a while, and then must have had pity on my shivering form, for he held the door open all the way and allowed me entrance. He brought me to the same parlor I'd been at the previous night. A sickly feeling was in my stomach as I recalled pinning him to that couch against his will... His scared eyes flashed before my vision and I distinctly recalled that whispered, "I hate you, Kaoru." I shuddered violently.
"Kaoru? Damn, you must be really cold. Hang on, I'll get you a change of clothes. Yours are soaked!"
He left the room. I crept as close to the fire as I dared and rubbed my hands together. In a few minutes he returned with a sweatshirt and a pair of jeans. "They're Gackt's...I figured you wouldn't want to wear any of his thongs, so you can just go commando."
I took the clothes and offered him a grateful smile. He knew me pretty well.
In a few seconds I was dressed in the dry clothes and my wet ones were hanging by the fire. Kyo sat down on the couch and I sat down on the chair. I'd be damned if I was going to sit on the couch with him after what happened the other night.
"So what's up? Something with Shukumei?" Kyo asked, grabbing a blanket from underneath the couch and cuddling underneath it.
"Kawaii," I whispered, grinning at him.
"What?" He asked.
"Oh...nothing. I just coughed," I lied.
He nodded. "Well?"
I swallowed. "Right. I'll just get straight to the point. Ken was having a poker party and while I was there--"
"Who is Ken and why the fuck is this relevant?" Kyo interrupted, eyebrows raised.
"Ken is the guitarist in L'Arc~en~Ciel and he hired me to hook him up with Tetsu, the bassist. But anyway, so I was--"
"Are you sure you ever hook men up with women?"
I smiled. I was reminded so much of when I first met Kyo and he asked me all of these sarcastic questions about my profession. I couldn't help what I said next. "It reminds me of when we first met."
He hiked a brow. "What?"
"You know...you were asking me all of these questions about my profession and making fun of me and stuff..." I sighed wistfully.
Kyo offered me a half-smile. "Yeah, it was fun. So what about this poker party?"
I nodded. "Right, right. Well, you know Hyde was in Moon Child with Gackt, right?" Kyo gave a nod of affirmation, so I continued. "Well, he was there and we were talking and he told me that the other day Gackt called him and asked him if they could make love on the beach, or something else really gay like that. I guess that Gackt would dump you the moment Hyde says he'll be with him." I held my breath, hoping he believed me.
He chuckled. Well, that was a good sign. If he didn't believe me he would have already nailed me to the ceiling by my nose hairs. Laughter was a good sign. "Oh, Kaoru," he said, "is that all you came here to tell me? Because I already know."
My jaw dropped. "What!? You...you know all about--wait! Are you mocking me?"
He burst into laughter. When it subsided, he shook his head in light amusement. "Of course not. Look, when we decided to date, Gackt told me that he was waiting for Hyde. He said that if Hyde would be with him, he didn't want to be with anyone else and asked me if that was okay. I said it was. He's doubtful Hyde will be with him anyway, since he's married and all. And making love on the beach isn't gay, you dumbass."
I blinked. Several seconds passed before I found an answer. "So I'm a dumbass now? I guess that's an improvement...I used to be an asshole, a son of a bitch, an insensitive jerk, and a lot of other really foul things. I guess if I'm a dumbass it just means I'm stupid... Hell, ignorance is bliss, right?"
I could have swore I saw a tiny twinkle in Kyo's eyes, but when I blinked it was gone. He smiled, though, that was obvious. "Yeah, but ignorance isn't stupidity."
I shrugged. "How the hell should I know? I'm the dumbass."
He chortled and leaned his head against his blanket-clad hands. The effect almost made me flail my arms wildly and screech, "Wai! Wai!" He was still smiling, too, which made it even better. "You're so funny, Kaoru. I miss hanging out with you."
I smiled sadly. "Yeah, I miss hanging out with you, too. You're so cute."
He narrowed his eyes and stuck his tongue out. "Meanie."
I laughed. "I can call names, too! You...bedbug, you!"
Kyo laughed loudly at that and just squirmed further beneath the blankets so that only his eyes peeked up at me. I tapped my chin. "Hm...if I remember right you were always kind of ticklish, too..."
His eyes widened and his head shook, but I pounced on him anyway, finding his sides and tickling. He shrieked in a very un-Kyo-like way and sought refuge beneath the covers. I just laughed triumphantly and kept tickling, finding all the places I knew made him laugh the most. "Say Uncle!" I exclaimed, poking him right below the ribcage.
"Never!" The giggling blanket answered.
"Very well! Then face my wrath!" I exclaimed dramatically.
I pinned him to the couch and sat on him so he couldn't go anywhere. My tickling increased and his laughter grew louder. "O--okay! Uncle! Uncle!" He gasped.
So I removed my hands, resting them on my thighs. The laughs faded out and the blanket wiggled as he found the edge and pulled it down so I could see his flushed face. He grinned toothily and I bit my lip. "I love your smile," I whispered.
He reddened even more somehow. "Gackt's paying for me to see the best orthodontist in Tokyo."
My brow furrowed. "But why? You don't need to."
He laughed slightly and looked down at his hands that were fingering the blanket. "Of course I do...you've seen my teeth, Kaoru..."
I bent down so our faces were close, which caused him to look up at me. I smiled. "You're right, I have. And I think they're perfect."
His adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed. And then our lips met. I didn't even realize we had both inched closer until they were touching. My hands stayed on my thighs and his were still clutching the blanket. We just kissed. Sweet, simple. Our mouths never opened. There was no hungry gasping or frantic groping...just a simple, pure kiss. I pulled back and smiled apologetically. "You're perfect."
He stared at me, lips parted and face flushed beautifully. I finally moved one of my hands to stroke his cheek. He brought his hands up to my thighs, and found one of my hands with his, gripping it tightly. "Kaoru, I...I wish..."
"It had never happened?" I supplied.
He nodded. "Yeah...I wish we could go back."
My lips trembled and I took both of his hands in mine. "We can," I whispered.
He smiled. "Things would never be the same."
I swallowed. "No, but we could start new."
"I don't want to. I want things to be the way they were. I wish you'd never told me you were making love to Miyavi. Because you're right--ignorance is bliss."
Damnit! The tears were threatening to spill from my eyes again. I squeezed his hands tighter. "Please...we can take a long vacation to New York City or something...and forget about everything that happened. I'll take you to Carnegie Hall and we'll see the Statue of Liberty and--"
Kyo pulled his hand away and reached up to cup my face. I closed my eyes and leaned into his touch. "That's not what I'm looking for," he said softly.
My eyes snapped open. "You're...looking for something?"
He nodded. "Yep. Something from you."
"And then you'd...you'd come back to me?"
He nodded again, this time a smile playing on his face. I stared at him in shock. "But--but I thought you said--you made a vow to never--"
"I've never been very good at keeping my promises."
I think five minutes went by where I was just staring at him. Then I laughed and bent my head to kiss him again. I kissed him again, and again, and again...each sweet kiss getting longer. Before I knew it, our tongues were wrestling passionately. He was stroking my thighs. I was using one hand to gently tug on his soft, blonde tendrils, while the other one had snaked up his shirt and was teasing his nipples. He slowly sat up and suddenly I was on my back and he was straddling me. He furiously unbuttoned my shirt. "Kaoru...I miss you so much. I want your dick inside of me again."
My mouth dropped open. "But Gackt--"
He silenced me with a kiss, his hands fumbling with the zipper on my pants. His kisses moved lower and lower; his tongue slid erotically down my abdomen. I arched my back to his touch. "But, Kyo..." I breathed. "What about--"
He pulled my pants down to my knees and then undid his own pants and slipped them off, along with his boxers. "He thinks one more time would be good for closure...he's completely okay with it."
"And you--"
My train of thought derailed when he positioned himself on top of me and guided my throbbing member into his tight entrance. I gasped and gripped his thighs tightly. "Oh god, Kyo...Kyo, I love you," I choked out, pleasure running through my veins.
"Kaoru!" He whimpered, resting his hands on my chest and starting a rhythm.
I groaned as he moved up and down around me. I found his cock and wrapped my hand around it, pumping it steadily. He moaned and arched his back. I quickened my movements. "Come on, baby, match me here..." I breathed.
He nodded and moved faster, trying to keep up with my hand. Watching his body moving above me, seeing the glistening sweat all over his toned chest nearly caused me to come, but I held back, furiously pumping his member. He panted and cried out, moving faster, rocking hard against me. "Ohh...oh, Kaoru...I'm coming! I'm--I'm coming! KAORU!" He spilled his seed all over my palm, and it dripped onto my chest.
When his muscles clenched around me, it sent me over the edge and I belted out, "I love you!" as I filled him.
He fell on top of me and immediately kissed me, his tongue darting into my mouth. I extracted myself from him and then just held him close to me, wishing the night would never end. I pulled the blankets over us. The last thing I remembered hearing before I drifted into a peaceful sleep, was a whispered, "I love you, too."
When I awoke the next morning, my eyes stayed shut for a moment longer, and I savored the feel of Kyo's hair between my fingers...the steady beating of his heart against my own. I sighed contentedly, running my hand through his hair and down his perfect back. "Oh, Kyo..." I murmured.
I opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was Gackt, sitting in the chair, his legs crossed and--why the hell was he wearing sunglasses? Then I realized that I was naked on a couch with his boyfriend. For a split second I felt triumph. Then I panicked. Gackt could beat me up.
I sat up quickly. "This isn't how it looks!" I exclaimed stupidly.
He brought his forefinger over his lips. "Shhh. You'll wake Kyo-kun."
I blinked. "Eh?"
He smiled. "How are you doing this morning, Kaoru-san?"
I blinked again. "Eh?"
He sighed and leaned forward. "How. Are. You. Doing. This. Morning. Kaoru-san?"
"You aren't mad?" I gasped. "I just slept with your lover! We had erotic, sweaty mansex on your sofa! You should be pissed!"
He chuckled. "Oh, Kaoru-san...I understand your need for Kyo. He is an excellent lover, isn't he? At any rate, I think having one last pleasurable night with him is what you needed to feel completion in your relationship. Now you can happily move on with your life and find someone else to love."
I stared at him. "That is the stupidest thing I have ever heard. Having sex with Kyo again just makes me want to do it one more time and then one more time and then one more time...it's an endless cycle."
He shook his head. "Tut, tut, tut. Is sex the only thing on your mind? I'll agree that it is a wonderful thing, given as a gift to mankind, but it should not be the only aspect of the relationship worth keeping alive. Of course, sex is very special to me, as it saved my life once. It's a fascinating story, would you like to hear it?"
I was gaping, I won't deny it. Lucky for me, Kyo groaned and stretched his arms, sleepily cracking open his eyes. He looked at me and smiled. Then he turned his head and saw Gackt and his eyes widened. "Gackun!"
Gackt grinned. "Ah, goodmorning, my sweet dove of heaven."
I threw up in my mouth a little. What was even more sickening, is that Kyo would actually let someone call him that. I looked at the little man on the couch beside me. He just smiled at Gackt and then bent and fumbled on the floor for his boxers. "Ne, Gackt, I had sex with another man. Are you mad?"
Gackt shook his head. "Definitely not. Assuming, of course, that this was your last time with Kaoru-san?"
Kyo found his boxers and looked over at me. "Of course." Then he looked at Gackt. "Assuming, of course, that we stay together forever."
Gackt chuckled. "Only Time can see what Fate will bring," he said all creepy-fortune teller-like.
"So who's Time? I mean, I know Fate. He's five foot nine and is almost certifiably insane," I joked, laughing manically.
Kyo and Gackt just stared at me and I realized they didn't get it because they didn't know that Yoshiki kept having fateful encounters with me. I immediately shut my trap and vowed never to open it again.
As you might have guessed, I broke my vow.
Anyway, when Kyo had gotten his boxers on he got up and walked over to Gackt, plopping himself on the taller man's lap. I was royally pissed. He had just had sex with me. Now who was the cheating dirtbag!? I crossed my arms over my chest. "Uh, you just had sex with me. How can you act so nonchalant with Gackt?" I asked, seething.
He blinked at me. "I thought we already talked about this. The sex was for closure. Or did you forget that I'm dating Gackt?"
"You little bitch!" I exclaimed, unable to control myself. "You are the one who fucking started it all! If I didn't know any better I'd say you weren't pleased with Gackt! I'd say you want to get back with me!" I straightened my shoulders in triumph.
Kyo raised an eyebrow and then burst into laughter. "Oh, Kaoru, you really are funny! Gackt not pleasing me? HAHAHAHAHA! That's a good one!"
I glared at him. "You don't have to rub it in my face, damnit."
He grinned evilly. "You mean like this?"
He turned around so he was facing Gackt and removed his sunglasses, then leaned forward and kissed his nose. My insides turned to ice. "Okay, I get it," I mumbled.
"Hm, did you hear something, Gackun?" Kyo asked, sliding his arms sensually up Gackt's chest.
Gackt gave a short nod, resting his hands on the small of Kyo's back. "Most certainly. Kaoru-san just said--"
Kyo silenced him with a kiss. And he moaned. He freaking moaned. I stomped my foot. "ALRIGHT ALREADY!" I screeched.
Kyo broke the kiss and laughed devilishly as he got up. "I'm gonna shower."
And with that he left. I stared after him, feeling a mixture of love, frustration, and impressiveness.
Gackt stood and put his sunglasses back on. "Come; I'll see you out, Kaoru-san."
I awkwardly changed back into my now-dry clothes, trying to ignore him watching me. Then I grudgingly allowed him to escort me from the building. When I'd stepped outside I turned to face him. "You won't have Kyo forever, I'll see to that. Oh, and by the way: he still loves me!"
Gackt smiled. "I don't doubt that. But have you ever thought that it's the thought of you he loves?"
I hiked a brow. "What the hell are you talking about?"
He sighed and rubbed his forehead. "Kyo loves the thought of you. He loves the thought of being with you again. He loves remembering the good times you shared. I'm not so sure he loves you at the moment, though. Sex doesn't prove anything. He won't be able to love you unless you can give him a reason to again, which so far you haven't really done. In the meantime, he's quite happy with me. He makes me breakfast, which is something none of my past lovers have done. And just last week he started telling me that he loves me. He never did before. To a man like me, that says something. What does it say to you? Undoubtedly, that he really does love me."
"Would you shut the fuck up?!" I glared at him. "Look, you think you know all about Kyo, but you don't. You're just--"
"No," Gackt boomed, causing me to take a step backward, "you are the one who assumes too much, Kaoru-san. Did Kyo tell you that he didn't really mind your act of rape?"
"Yes," I said, my brow crinkled.
He smiled slightly. "He would never tell you the truth about something like that, would he? He's embarrassed and disappointed. It hurt him deeply, Kaoru-san. Not so much because someone was trying to rape him, but because the someone was you. He told me that, of all the people in the world to be capable of rape he would have thought you least likely."
"You don't know what Kyo thinks!" I spat, tears surfacing in my eyes. "You--"
"Who is the one who held him close after you left? It was I. Who listened to him relay all of his fears, doubts, and insecurities? It was I. Who hears him crying in his sleep at night? I do. I think there's more to Kyo than you think there is. You seem to see him as a cute child, a comforting presence, a nice piece of ass. If you dwell on one aspect of him, you miss out on the rest of him. You don't see who he really is."
I was shaking with anger. "How dare you try to tell me that I don't know Kyo. I do, too! We lived together for almost four months! I learned a lot about him in that time!"
He shook his head. "Kaoru-san, tell me his greatest fear."
I blinked. "What?"
"Tell me what he fears the most."
I stared at him. I stared at him for a long time, trying to find an answer. But I couldn't. I didn't know Kyo's greatest fear. I knew of some things he was afraid of, for instance, daddy long-leg spiders scared him half to death. It was an interesting fear that he couldn't even explain. He just didn't like them. But surely that couldn't be his greatest fear. "D-daddy long-legs?" I gave it a go.
He shook his head slowly. "His greatest fear is rejection."
"Rejection?"
"Growing up he was rejected to be on the school soccer team because his legs were too short. He was rejected by the first girl he asked out. When he applied for colleges, all of them rejected him. He found his girlfriend cheating on him and saw that as another form of rejection. And then his worst fear became very real again when you, too, cheated on him."
I swallowed repeatedly. I didn't want him to tell me this. But at the same time...I did. And I wondered why I had never thought to talk to Kyo about this kind of thing. I didn't even know he'd tried out for soccer when he was young. Could I have really been so selfish in our relationship that I didn't care about his fears--just my own? Yes, a voice in my head answered me. "And...what are his doubts?" I asked, completely shocked that I was pursuing this conversation with Gackt of all people.
"Right now his greatest doubt is in his relationship with me," he said, with a hint of a smile. "He's had so many foul relationships in the past that he refuses to have faith in this one. But he has more doubts. He has doubts in himself, in his own capabilities. He has strong doubts in the stability of the shinkansen system."
My mouth fell open. "He's afraid to ride the bullet train?"
He gave a slight nod. "I don't call it fear, necessarily. He just doesn't trust them. But hadn't you known that he's never been on one since he was fourteen?"
I shook my head, my heart sinking lower with everything I didn't know.
Gackt nodded. "Yes, when he was fourteen he was riding from Kyoto to Tokyo and they suffered technical difficulties. It was not a huge problem, the train just shut down completely for an hour or two, but he's never trusted them since."
I swallowed and ran my hand through my hair. "And...and his insecurities?"
Gackt removed his sunglasses and I could see the unmistakable sadness in his eyes. "Himself."
"What?" I gasped.
"You and I both know that Kyo is a wonderful person with many capabilities and talents. But he doesn't know that. He has no self-esteem, Kaoru-san. He's insecure about his smile, his nose, his height, his hands, his hair, his chest, his penis... He doesn't think he's a very good cop. He dislikes his personality and all the aspects of his character. He doesn't believe he's satisfying in the bedroom."
I shook my head. "No, no...he is an animal in the bedroom. How can he be thinking such things?"
Gackt sighed. "He's grown up believing them. We hate to admit it, but our childhoods impact our entire lives. Kyo's just impacted him in a very negative way." Suddenly his steel blue gaze turned to a glare. "And you have done nothing to help him. You have only made him feel worse about himself. I pretend to be very calm and unconcerned in front of the public, but I care very much for people, Kaoru-san. And right now, Kyo is the most important person in my life. I know that you don't want to believe that. I know you want to pretend that nothing happened. But the reality is that you messed up and now Kyo is with me."
I blinked. I had taken another step back during that speech, as he'd taken a step forward. I swallowed. "Do you think you're helping his self-image by telling him he needs braces?"
Gackt snarled at me. I kid you not, he snarled. I bet you didn't know he had it in him. "Again, you assume too much. I told Kyo his teeth were fine how they were, that they gave him a beauty no one else could possess. But he can't help the way he feels everytime he looks in a mirror. He asked me if I knew of any good orthodontists. I told him if he wanted to have work done to his teeth, I would gladly pay for it."
I glared at him. "How do I know you aren't lying to me about all of this?"
He chuckled. "Oh, I never lie."
I blinked. "Yeah, like you're really 400 years old!"
He shook his head. "No, I'm 465."
I sighed and turned around. "Whatever, man. Whatever."
"Kaoru-san," he called.
I faced him once more. "Yeah?"
"Kyo is mine now, and I will fight for him. But you need to fight back. I still think you love him, though that's become one of his doubts. You have to prove it. Love is far more than three simple words. I can assure you that Kyo and I are in love right now. And you don't stand a chance against me." He smiled his dazzling smile.
I could have killed him if I wasn't so afraid that he'd dislocate my arm or something. I opted for verbal abuse instead. "You bastard."
He retained his breathtaking smile. "I don't say this to be mean, Kaoru-san. I say it to inspire you. I suppose you've heard that it's not the size of the dog in the fight, but the size of the fight in the dog. My magnum is three times the size of yours, but I don't think Kyo is looking for a big dick."
My jaw dropped and I could only stare. Was Gackt trying to...encourage me? No possible way. I had immediately made myself believe we were nemesis, from the moment I saw the man walking into the apartment with Kyo. I guess he didn't see it that way. Of course, I still didn't like him. I mean, he was weird, perfect, and he was absolutely right about his "magnum," but I had to be a little bit grateful. Because of our conversation, I had an insatiable hunger to win the fight against him.
I smiled. It was about the only thanks he was going to get from me. "Of course, you know this means war," I said boldly.
He continued smiling and gave a nod, putting his sunglasses back on. "Excellent. I await your first battle strategy, Kaoru-san. Have a good day."
He walked back into the mansion and shut the door behind him. I stared at the door for a whole minute, trying to fathom the enigma that was Gackt, and upon failing finally went on my way.
* * * * *
Kyo came out of the bathroom wearing nothing but boxers and plopped on his and Gackt's bed, where Itami-chan was happily snoozing on a fluffy pillow. She made a soft sound and cracked her eyes open slightly as his weight descended on the bed. He stroked her fur and she immediately began purring, her eyes slipping shut. "Kaoru and I had sex last night, Itami-chan," he said softly. "It felt good. Not because Kaoru's a sex machine or anything, but just because it was with him. Am I stupid to keep pushing him away?"
"Of course not," came a sultry voice from the doorway.
He turned and offered a half-smile to Gackt as he entered the room and took a seat on the bed. "You're not stupid, Kyo."
Kyo nodded and turned his attention back to his cat. "I-I know that, but...Gackt, I know we're together and all, but I still...I still love him so much." He planted his face in Itami-chan's fur, which smelled strongly of Platinum Egoiste.
Gackt reached over and gingerly threaded his fingers in Kyo's hair. "I know. I have a nose for things pertaining to love. It's quite obvious, in fact."
Kyo sat up and faced Gackt. "I'm sorry. I'm a shitty lover. I'm still in love with my old boyfriend, I had sex with him last night, and I orgasm too soon..."
Gackt smiled and stroked his cheek. "Don't be silly, silly. You have two handsome men fighting to win your affection."
Kyo blushed deeply and ducked his head. "Is he...did he say--"
"He told me we were at war."
Kyo smiled and rested his chin on his knees, wrapping his arms around himself to hide the blush that was still present in his cheeks. "Oh. But still...do you think it's stupid for me to keep pushing him away?"
"Not necessarily. Kaoru-san is an interesting person," Gackt replied, rubbing his chin in thought. "He doesn't seem to completely understand you or what exactly he feels for you. I would hate for you to accept him back into your embrace too quickly, only to have him relentlessly put you through the same struggle once again. Love knows no time or boundaries... If he truly loves you, he will keep fighting for you for years."
Kyo nodded. "I guess that makes sense... Thanks, Gackun." He bashfully hugged Gackt.
Gackt smiled and stroked his back. "Can I just ask you one question, Kyo? And please know that you don't need to answer right now if you don't want to."
"Yes?" Kyo said to Gackt's chest.
"Do you love me?"
For several seconds the only sound in the room came from Itami-chan as she purred with the consistency of a motorboat. Finally Kyo unstuck himself from Gackt and gave a small nod. "Yes." He laughed. "That makes me even more of an asshole. I love two men." He sighed and ran his hands through his hair irritably.
Gackt smiled broadly. "No, it just makes everything that much more interesting." He pulled Kyo back into his arms. "That being said, I have one more question to ask you, my dearest angel of beauty."
Kyo stifled a laugh at the endearment, but his heartbeat quickened at Gackt's husky tone. "Yes?" He meeped, drawing circles on Gackt's flowy shirt with his finger.
"Would you like me to make you some curry?"
All thoughts of being chained to the bed while a naked Gackt crawled seductively over him went right out the window. He laughed and shook his head. "Sure. I like curry."
Gackt kissed the top of his head and bounced up. "Wonderful! I'll go prepare!" He exclaimed, already pulling his shirt off as he danced out the door.
Kyo sighed and chortled to himself as he scooped up Itami-chan, waking her fully from her happy catnap. "I am so glad Kaoru doesn't cook naked. That would seriously weird me out," he said to her.
She just yawned. He brought her up to his face and once again breathed in her cologne-drenched scent. "God, Itami-chan, you have to go easy on Gackt's perfume. You're making me horny." He snickered.
"Nyan!" She teased, licking her paw.
"I knew you'd say that."
Go to Part 16.
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Notes: 1) I do believe September is when the rainy season begins in Japan, but I can't remember exactly. And I was too lazy to do research this time. Do feel free to correct me if I'm wrong.
2) Thong reference! \^^/
3) The KaoruxKyo moment was very needed. They hadn't screwed since part 7 or something. And I didn't really write that one out.
4) If you read Gackt's autobiography he does talk about a time where thinking about sex saved his life. I can't really remember the chapter as it's been awhile since I've read it, but it's there. ^^;;
5) In regards to Gackt and Kyo's relationship... It's getting stronger with the time they spend together and each passing idiotic moment of Kaoru's. At the same time it's a very mysterious relationship because you're not entirely trusting of Gackt (at least I assume), and it's very obvious that Kyo is still very much in love with Kaoru. And it's probably the weirdest relationship I have ever seen. Honestly, who would ever let their boyfriend sleep with his ex? Gackt. I know.
6) I'm actually not sure of Yoshiki's height, but he couldn't be too tall. I mean, hide was the shortest in the band and he wasn't too much taller than him... Just an estimated guess on my part. Truthfully, I don't really care if I have Yoshiki's correct height or not. It's not like this is getting graded, right? *looks around suspiciously*
7) I'm curious to know what you guys think of Gackt after his and Kaoru's conversation. I want it very clear that he's not the bad guy, here. I picture him as secretly intelligent, pretending to be dimwitted; secretly a genuinely good guy, pretending to be vain; secretly insane, pretending to be a sane man, pretending to be insane. I'm sure you understand.
8) I rewrote the conversation between Gackt and Kyo three times. I had to get it just right because it's really an integral part of the story. A turning point, if you will.
9) Shinkansen = bullet trains
10) Gackt claims his birthdate is July 4, 1540. If you do the math then he's turning 465 next month. Remember that the story takes place in September, after his birthday.
11) Heh, the first thing I wanted to say when Kaoru says "Was Gackt trying to...encourage me?" was "He sure had a funny way of doing it." But I couldn't fit it in there without making the whole paragraph crap, so I'm telling it to you here instead. XD
12) "Of course, you know this means war," stolen from the Looney Tunes. All hail Daffy Duck!
13) I wish my cat smelled like Gackt's cologne. ♥_♥
14) I am making way too many notes, but this just has to be said. Right after Kyo says that he loves two men, when Gackt says, "It just makes everything that much more interesting." That pretty much sums up the entire story. ^^;; I should write soap operas for a living. ~_~