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[romasquerade]

HELLO LIVEJOURNAL, it's been a while. And by a while I mean like a week or something, but it feels like MUCH longer. I've been super busy recently, working 30 hours last week in 4 days (this is actually only impressive because 15 of them were on one day ((the 4th, no less, which was about 105 degrees and all of my work that day was physical))), and

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[darelose]

about him and Niall possibly being in love. Sometimes. Maybe.
I am eagerly awaiting the day that you want them to be in love all of the time, tbh.

But now I also want 100 fics about Zayn and Louis being partners-in-crime and it is an issue. Thanks for making a behind-the-scenes video that finally makes me understand the Louis/Zayn dynamic 1D, I'm not mad about it at all.

[romasquerade]

When I do, it will be all your fault. I'm pretty sure if I ever read any of your pretend boyfriends fic it'll do me in.

IKR? I sort of hadn't bought it before, but then there was this video and just .... I have so many FEELINGS about it, because Zayn is so GOOFY in it when he's just with his friends and the people he knows, messing around and being a dork and looking so HAPPY that I just ..... I mean I'd always suspected he was like that, but it's nice to KNOW. I can definitely see how they're partners in crime, now. It seems silly that I'd ever considered they wouldn't be.

[darelose]

I will take that blame and wear it with pride. When I make that Zayn/Niall feelings post on Tumblr finally, I will win you over, because it is a pairing of sunshine and light and happiness, unlike Zayn/Liam which makes me want to claw my face off. That is hyperbole but it hurts.

I totally don't know why I didn't believe it before. Maybe because we mostly see Zayn as very serious and quiet in interviews, so I really couldn't picture him being mischievous with Louis, despite them pointing it out? And then I saw that video and Zayn was running around being an idiot with Louis and getting slammed in doors by Paul and my feelings about Zayn Malik became even more nonsensical. HE LOOKS SO HAPPY. It made me beam at my computer like an idiot.

[romasquerade]

People talking about how much they love something is my biggest weakness always. Like in the beginning of that book Blue Like Jazz, how that dude is like 'I never loved jazz until I watched someone who loved jazz play,' because that is the story of my life. (Fun fact that you didn't ask for: that dude's expression of his love of jazz in that manner made me want to apply to Reed University just because he went there??? I'm weird.)

I know, right? The persona he gives fans, for the most part, is quite aloof and a little subdued and I guess I've ... I've never like, doubted his goofiness or his happiness, but it's one thing to like.... abstractly think of that as there, and another entirely to see that, to see him looking and acting so happy, interacting so delightedly with everyone else, he just seems very.... carefree in a way we haven't seen yet from him and it slays me in the best ways.