Today was another crazy day. I began with an interview this morning for a new job at a phamaceutical company- went really good. My fiend called me up to help her with her school work and of course I didn't hesitate to go out and help her crazy ass. I like hanging out with her, even if its for 5 minutes. You just such a fun and cool people to be ( Read more... )

It's funny that I have so much around me to keep me happy yet I will never let it come to me ever. I dated people here and there but never have or will I let anyone get close to me. I promise myself that. Went out today like I always do but it just hit me out of no where. It wasn't me. Sometimes people know how to kick you, when all you ever mean ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I wrote an entry. Really long time actrully. I'm home watching The 40yr old Virgin with Audrey. My parents are on vacation in the Caribbean, no ones is home and we have the house all to our selfs. We decided to just cuddle and watch movies all night. She lying right next to me and watching the movie so peacefully. I care so ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a really crazy day. I got up and just felt like staying home and that exactly what I did. Call out sick. That's when things started to spice up. I called my best friend Diana and ask her what she was up to. She had class, I told I would drive to her school and visit her. She was as eager as I was to see each other. When I got their ( Read more... )

It took me about a week to write this for a friend of mines. For the past couple of months, we have been talking as friends about just similarities. The past week things took a dramatic change. She told me that she like me for person that I am and of course I told her how much I hate her-lol. It started on Sunday where we began to talk about our ( Read more... )

One day my kids will read this see the man their father was. I could give them the world- which I'm sure I did but I want to only leave them with the knowledge of love. Live to love and not love to live. I'm only 25 and have many years ahead of me but I've seen it for what it's worth and life is to short to dwell on the uncerntanity.

I don't know- what a way to start a new journal. Life- lol. You search your entire life trying to find happiness and never realized it looks you in the mirror every day. Today, my character is exactly what I want it to be. You know when you were small and you said that you would never be like the rest of the world- I did it exactly like that. When ( Read more... )

I sometime ask is my curse is my heart. Some choose lust or love, while others chose to find themselves and kill the ones that mean the world to them. I always been true to myself and I have people who always remind of it. I often wonder if she's in a better place, if she knows I still think of her now that she's gone. I cherish every memory we had ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder whats ahead of me- what new journey besets me. Sometimes the things you know as you know it ends, all the happiness. Everyday I grow stronger as a person. I had a conversation with my old high school teacher, she was the only person I felt like talking to. The past couple of week- how do I even move. I only hate one thing in this ( Read more... )

It funny how life has it's up and downs. Where do I even start to speak, what do I say. Much less, what do I type. My hands are trembling, my heart is as dead as it could ever be but it's the only thing that make me feel safe- to write- how to feel life again. I lost the 2 most important people in my life today. I lost my fiancee and I lost my son ( Read more... )