Comments | romeohotel: Not what I wanted my triumphant return to LJ to be

romeohotel

Not what I wanted my triumphant return to LJ to be

May 01, 2009 23:34

Will ended it. He fell out of love with me, didn't think it would work, was gonna be in Asia for six years, something along those lines ( Read more... )

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zimzat May 2 2009, 04:23:34 UTC

*hugs* One step at a time.

zimzat May 2 2009, 04:58:21 UTC

If you ever want to get away from it all for a little while give me a call.

romeohotel May 2 2009, 05:01:51 UTC

Thanks, I just might.

agriking May 2 2009, 13:06:11 UTC

Its never easy. The best I can do is say sorry.

romeohotel May 3 2009, 05:01:22 UTC

Thanks.

Today's been pretty good; some downs, but I've been kept too busy to brood. I'm sure it'll sneak up and ambush me at some point though.

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romeohotel May 3 2009, 05:01:32 UTC

Danke.

mlknchz May 2 2009, 15:09:30 UTC

ahh, Rob...I'm sorry to hear this, my friend.

romeohotel May 3 2009, 05:10:19 UTC

It's life. While I'm sad to lose him, in some ways I'm kind of relieved. We'd been sliding, and he'd been showing less and less interest in me, and giving less and less support - and I'd been riding the roller coaster of joy when he was being boyfriendly, loneliness when he was away and out of contact, and anger when I was essentially being ignored. At least, this way, it's over, I can pick up the pieces, and move on.

greypaw May 4 2009, 06:50:56 UTC

*belated hug* Sorry... :(

romeohotel May 4 2009, 21:22:41 UTC

Thanks.

I actually don't feel too horrible . . . more wistful at pleasant memories than anything else. As Corinne told me last night, I did everything I could to make it work, and it wasn't meant to be. So there's no big "what might have been" hanging over me.

greypaw May 7 2009, 07:11:16 UTC

In my (limited) experience, the "what might have been" is the worst part of it, so I guess you're fortunate for that, at least... :)

romeohotel May 7 2009, 21:53:28 UTC

Yeah. "If I'd only done X differently" tears you up. This relationship, I didn't do anything wrong.

In a twisted sort of way, I kinda wish I had; it's a lot easier to understand being dumped for being an asshat than being a great guy and the standard against which future relationships will be judged - and still getting dumped.