my informal goodbye

[ronnoestaaqui]

ko, well i went 2 karate this morning despite my inkling (spelling???) 2 not go b/c....i was tired. jennifer told me that jacob quit. so i should be over joyed, right??? but i'm not. in a way i'm happy but i'm also sad & also angry w/him. i went through 6 months of torture seeing him @ karate all the time b/c as soon as we break up he decides

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[squisha05]

ugh, conflicting emotions...it sucks. It's like one second you feel one way buuut then again, you feel the exact opposite. Yeah, I know how you feel allll to well. Hang in there, eventually it'll subside. Theres a lotta wisdom in the third paragraph :) And it seems like you're comming to peace with things, which makes me happy, cause when you're happy, I'm happy : ) Maybe not seeing him will make it easier to move on. No, you'll never forget him completely, but then again, I don't think that's the ultimate goal. I think that everyone God has brought into your life, was put there for a reason. Personally, I think the hardest part is letting go and I think you're already getting through that. So hang in there friend. And for those times where you feel confused about what you feel, try just writing. not stoping to think, not altering it for ur online journal for ppl to see, but just actually writing (on paper) for no one but yourself. It might help you clear your head and get out everything you're thinking about. I dunno, it

everyone has a jacob

[realvillageink]

honey, i can say that i know how you feel. been there, felt that, wanted to die myself. but hang in there. like ish said... uh.. ditto. ish is a wise woman. (i love aisha!! even if u dont know it, even if we're not close, i just want u to know, i hold u in high regards!!) it will take forever for you to be 'okay' whatever that means, and the pain may and probably wont ever go completely away, but... all you can do is try to fight the tears and knot in your stomach (like the one that's forming in mine now, or maybe it's the waffles i just ate at 2:15 am) and smile through it. my 'jacob' went away, or more like, was away when we broke up, although was kinda there. now, though, i can say he's all the way out, although he will always be in my mind and in my heart. it hurts really bad still, but just remember all the good that came out of it. ish is right; i firmly believe people are in ur life for a reason. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. good things, bad things, everything has purpose. everything is a new experience, everything made u a

mistake

[ronnoestaaqui]

yeah joseph brought 2 my attention that the song i attempted 2 recite @ the end is by THE CALLING not TRAPT (i was listening to trapt while i was typing the entry).

~danyelle~