You should shout at me, my lady. For my arrogance, my distance from the lives that every other soul loses, my selfish, beastly conviction that I would rather see my precious people dead than absent, because then they would still be mine -- I hate myself at the moment; I am a filthy mockery of a soul, and an even worse mockery of a man, to think the things that I've thought today.
Fool that I am, to have wished so much to trap him here, to have wished so much to find another to take up the burden of my power and the shadow of my Goddess -- it's just that he was of the Dark, enough to wield it with power that I've never seen in another, and yet of the Light, enough to smile at his heartstrong friends' laughter and join in, and... I'd never met another soul better suited to the nature of my power, a soul who could embrace it without falling prey to its seductive madness.
I'd thought that I would be free, the next time that I died.
I am such a fool.
...if you can suffer the filth of my mood, I would truly appreciate your company.
//private and utterly unhackablelady_caterinaJune 29 2008, 02:53:15 UTC
....Sydney. I would not yell at you, nor would I berate you for feeling the way that you do. It must be...it must be maddening. To want to die with all your heart, and be denied....
Darkness and light, you say....
Perhaps. Well, I am apparently not the child of the light I so thought I was. Perhaps I have a greater affinity for the darkness than any would have guessed.
Could I....No, that's silly.
Of course I could, and it would be no trial to share your company, Sydney. I'm your friend, after all.
[ooc: She's asking if she could be heir to his power. I ....really wonder if she knows what she's asking...O_o ]
Re: //private and utterly unhackableroodbearerJune 29 2008, 04:05:42 UTC
It's not silly. It's just... far too cruel.
The Dark would take you as you are, you realize? Exactly as you are. And... even to be free, I am not so lost to depravity as to bind you to eternal suffering in a broken body. And you are not nearly enough of the Darkness to bear its yoke.
Your soul is of the Light, and your own strength is what gives you the grace to embrace those of us who walk amid the Dark and to feel no distortion of yourself, no hesitance in your acceptance. But I believe it is because you are truly of Light, not truly of moldering books and binding strictures and the meanderings of bitter, celibate old men.
I am a creature utterly of the Dark, and yet I am not malicious enough to wish my burden upon you in this state. You would find it far more unbearable than I. You would suffer twice over, in a way that Riku never would have. And I am not yet so depraved as to enslave you regardless. I am not.
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Fool that I am, to have wished so much to trap him here, to have wished so much to find another to take up the burden of my power and the shadow of my Goddess -- it's just that he was of the Dark, enough to wield it with power that I've never seen in another, and yet of the Light, enough to smile at his heartstrong friends' laughter and join in, and... I'd never met another soul better suited to the nature of my power, a soul who could embrace it without falling prey to its seductive madness.
I'd thought that I would be free, the next time that I died.
I am such a fool.
...if you can suffer the filth of my mood, I would truly appreciate your company.
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Darkness and light, you say....
Perhaps. Well, I am apparently not the child of the light I so thought I was. Perhaps I have a greater affinity for the darkness than any would have guessed.
Could I....No, that's silly.
Of course I could, and it would be no trial to share your company, Sydney. I'm your friend, after all.
[ooc: She's asking if she could be heir to his power. I ....really wonder if she knows what she's asking...O_o ]
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The Dark would take you as you are, you realize? Exactly as you are. And... even to be free, I am not so lost to depravity as to bind you to eternal suffering in a broken body. And you are not nearly enough of the Darkness to bear its yoke.
Your soul is of the Light, and your own strength is what gives you the grace to embrace those of us who walk amid the Dark and to feel no distortion of yourself, no hesitance in your acceptance. But I believe it is because you are truly of Light, not truly of moldering books and binding strictures and the meanderings of bitter, celibate old men.
I am a creature utterly of the Dark, and yet I am not malicious enough to wish my burden upon you in this state. You would find it far more unbearable than I. You would suffer twice over, in a way that Riku never would have. And I am not yet so depraved as to enslave you regardless. I am not.
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