And yeah! 18 years and counting :D
First of all, I never thought that everything about what happened just days ago were real.
It has been 18 years of my life, and yes! Still counting. If it weren’t for you, guys, I wouldn’t be the Ayyah that you know right now. So, prepare yourself for some drama, curses and shit, because I really want to tell all of you how lucky and blessed I feel right now. Although I honestly don’t know where to start (there’s a pool of thoughts in my head now), I will still do my best ;u;
I believe that everyone has three pillars of support in their lives-family, friends, and God. Without these four, there wouldn’t be the “self” (it’s you, person :D). As a part of those “everyone”, I have those three, too, and I want to properly thank those three for staying with me for 18 years.
Who was Ayyah?
As far as I could remember, I’m a very quiet child when I’m at the house but it’s as if I transform to a different person whenever I go to school-I become crazy. I’m such a bossy bitch back then, and I know that not everyone liked that. I hardly cared before because I only thought of enjoying my life as much as I could. Things did happen, and I started to love anime, which became a very large part of my life (I’ll tell you later why). I just did what I could during those times and studied because my parents told me to do so (lol but of course I enjoyed studying, dumbass). If I’d think about how I considered friendship at that time, I could tell that I only trusted a few (I don’t even remember my other classmates welp, such a bitch, Ayyah). AH! AND TRIVIA! I started spouting curses when I was in 5th grade (though I know there’s nothing to be proud of, ahaha!) I did all I could to achieve things not only academically but also, in the field of extra-curriculums, because IhonestlywantedtotryanythingthatIcan (no spaces there). I was a careless girl. I didn’t know what thorough hygiene means until I was in 6th grade, when I finally had a very aware mindset on the things that were happening around me. Don’t worry, okay. I won’t be doing an autobiography here XD
I made strong friendly relationships when I was in 6th grade. I had my first bestfriends, discovered more of the gifts that God gave me, but declined academically. Probably that was because I was enjoying my life too much in my extra-curricular activities. However, I didn’t regret that ;) It continued until I was in my first year of HS, and I was dropped to a non-star section. I saw two different sides of the story. My perspective grew wider. I came back to my original section when I was in 3rd year by studying really hard as a gift to my parents (especially to my father who went abroad), and stayed there until I graduated. Aaah, that’s when too many things happened. As in too many things. It’s packed of stories, and you know, right now I don’t know where to start again.
A good start
Before I turned 2nd year (when I became a non-star section student), my non-schoolmate friend that I met online and I made an internet-based fanfiction community (it’s still healthily running you know XD). Then I went back to that section, then some sort of problem was ignited like a flame (lol yeah), and I didn’t know who to run to. That’s the time when I knew how serious life is, that’s it’s not something that we can play easily with our hands. That’s also the time when I realized how important friendship is, and that it is something that doesn’t depend on age and distance. When I had problems when I was in 3rd year, I met my closest and real friends who (amazingly and thankfully) did not turn their backs on me. To those people, you know who you are, and I want to thank you. You have my gratitude. Even those people who I only met online and became the shoooouldeeersss I can lean on, you guys are the best: to think that we haven’t seen each other personally yet you accepted me for who I am (and how crazy I am), thank you, too. Time passed and the problem was resolved.
Another problem came when I turned 4th year XD It’s really funny and weird at the same time on how problems seemed to love me when I hate them the most (Remember the Odyssey play? Haha. It was my fault, too, so it was okay for me to get swarmed by negative stuff). That was when I realized that I should not take things for granted no matter how easy they seem to be done, and that I should stop being a lazy-bum; that I should be a responsible person. In that same year, the idea of the significance of family and friends was reinforced unto me.
Right now that I’m in college, (thankfully) nothing bad happened (except for having annoying professors XD). What I was problematic about was my choice of university that I even thought of transferring to the school that I wished I was in. Not now, though, since I’ve got my friends who are always with me.
Anime!!!
So, how did anime become a very large part of my life? The answer is very easy: I learned a lot from it. Others might always say that it’s just fictional stuff but, hey, it doesn’t matter. Because of anime, I discovered a big part of me and my friends. If it wasn’t for anime, I wouldn’t have even thought of writing stories and stuff, improved my communication skills and became a MassComm student and more importantly, made a fanfiction community where I’ve found most of my closest friends. I picked most of the values that I get in life from them, and lol because of manga I started to appreciate arts and literature.
Another thing: If it wasn’t for my too much love for anime, I wouldn’t have been irresponsible especially during my 4th year in HS. If it wasn’t for that irresponsibility, of course, I would have never known what being responsible was.
Who is Ayyah?
ORYAAAAAAAAAA THAT WAS TOO MUCH DRAMA, FUUUUDGESTICKS! Let’s stop that now. Let’s move on, yeah? ‘Til now, I’m still an anime fan. XD Our online community is still running, and I’m enjoying my college life. I miss my HS friends and some elementary friends, too. Without them, I wouldn’t be the usually (insert description here based on how you see me) me.
GUYS, it’s surprising on how you see me as someone who’s sweet and kind. Are you joking me or what O_O I feel like I’m the bossy-bitch-who-keeps-on-giving-bitchy-advice type, so I wonder how the word kind was able to get into the description O_O But uh, yeah, thanks.
You guys make me feel like I deserve to become a friend and sister, when all the while I thought I was always the ‘third wheel’ - I honestly thought that I don’t deserve to become a friend because I felt like I was a loner (or probably it was just me). I just… kept on making friends as much as I could, and I didn’t know about how much I’ve made progress until this 18th year came. You guys made me feel very special.
To those people who I went to videoke @ Puregold when we were in first year, let me tell you how much fun it was X,D Still can't forget when we used to sing My Chemical Romance and Evanescense songs even if our voices were about to run out.
To those who are still with me and have me inside their hearts even if it has been a long time since I’ve last seen them, thank you. You guys are also in my heart and soul, and I love you.
To my thesis mates, thank you for those fulfilling months. I learned good decision making because of you, guys. You know the rest.
To IV - Basil the Great, thank you for being my kapatids. You guys taught me so many things about what life has to offer. Right now, I could tell that I’m very much prepared for whatever might happen. I also miss you and the old times, guys.
To Imagination: Unleashed family, woohoo! We’ve made this far, and we’re still running. Thank you for teaching me how to trust and love people, and that age and distance is not a hindrance in making strong relationships.
To those who organized the surprise attack party, YOU SUCCESSFULLY CAUGHT ME OFF-GUARD! Damn. X,D Anyway, thank you because at that day, I fully realized my worth.
To Kindles, Bananas and blockmates, thank you for making my college life wonderful. If it weren’t for you guys, I’d still be confused with the university-shizz and anything course-related frustrations. Everyday became wonderful because of you, guys.
To Bunka Koryu Kai (BKK), ありがとうございます！ (To those who can’t read hiragana, oooohohoho >:D) Also, if it weren’t for the daily random conversations + you guys keeping up with my bitchiness/bullying + the fuuuuun, I wouldn’t stay in AdU.
To my family - Mandac Family, thank you for bearing with a lazy daughter/sister like me. Even if I’m not that too much showy, I owe you guys a lot. I promise to do my best in everything that I can, as well as being even more considerate. I’m sorry for everything wrong that I’ve done, and I will do my best to correct them. I know that probably I’m the most distant in our family, and now I will do everything that I can to become closer with every one of you. I love you.
To my mother who I always sleep with inside the kulambo, thank you for bearing with my pagpupuyat, as well as whenever I’m having stomach cramps. I love you and your cooking. Thank you for being the Superwoman of the family-you’re my idol! :D
To my father who's currently in Dubai, I want to tell you that I'm very lucky to be your daughter. Once you come home, I'll hug you verrrrry tight like how I used to whenever you come home. If it weren't for you, there wouldn't be any inspiration for me to work this hard.
Lastly, to GOD, who never failed to be beside me. I know that I’m not that as prayerful as before, but remember that you’re always in my heart-and you know that. :)
Thank you everyone, and I love you.
From the craziest person who just turned 18,
Cathrina Ayyah Gendrano Mandac
PS: The last part made me think of our thesis paper X,D
It has been 18 years of my life, and yes! Still counting. If it weren’t for you, guys, I wouldn’t be the Ayyah that you know right now. So, prepare yourself for some drama, curses and shit, because I really want to tell all of you how lucky and blessed I feel right now. Although I honestly don’t know where to start (there’s a pool of thoughts in my head now), I will still do my best ;u;
I believe that everyone has three pillars of support in their lives-family, friends, and God. Without these four, there wouldn’t be the “self” (it’s you, person :D). As a part of those “everyone”, I have those three, too, and I want to properly thank those three for staying with me for 18 years.
Who was Ayyah?
As far as I could remember, I’m a very quiet child when I’m at the house but it’s as if I transform to a different person whenever I go to school-I become crazy. I’m such a bossy bitch back then, and I know that not everyone liked that. I hardly cared before because I only thought of enjoying my life as much as I could. Things did happen, and I started to love anime, which became a very large part of my life (I’ll tell you later why). I just did what I could during those times and studied because my parents told me to do so (lol but of course I enjoyed studying, dumbass). If I’d think about how I considered friendship at that time, I could tell that I only trusted a few (I don’t even remember my other classmates welp, such a bitch, Ayyah). AH! AND TRIVIA! I started spouting curses when I was in 5th grade (though I know there’s nothing to be proud of, ahaha!) I did all I could to achieve things not only academically but also, in the field of extra-curriculums, because IhonestlywantedtotryanythingthatIcan (no spaces there). I was a careless girl. I didn’t know what thorough hygiene means until I was in 6th grade, when I finally had a very aware mindset on the things that were happening around me. Don’t worry, okay. I won’t be doing an autobiography here XD
I made strong friendly relationships when I was in 6th grade. I had my first bestfriends, discovered more of the gifts that God gave me, but declined academically. Probably that was because I was enjoying my life too much in my extra-curricular activities. However, I didn’t regret that ;) It continued until I was in my first year of HS, and I was dropped to a non-star section. I saw two different sides of the story. My perspective grew wider. I came back to my original section when I was in 3rd year by studying really hard as a gift to my parents (especially to my father who went abroad), and stayed there until I graduated. Aaah, that’s when too many things happened. As in too many things. It’s packed of stories, and you know, right now I don’t know where to start again.
A good start
Before I turned 2nd year (when I became a non-star section student), my non-schoolmate friend that I met online and I made an internet-based fanfiction community (it’s still healthily running you know XD). Then I went back to that section, then some sort of problem was ignited like a flame (lol yeah), and I didn’t know who to run to. That’s the time when I knew how serious life is, that’s it’s not something that we can play easily with our hands. That’s also the time when I realized how important friendship is, and that it is something that doesn’t depend on age and distance. When I had problems when I was in 3rd year, I met my closest and real friends who (amazingly and thankfully) did not turn their backs on me. To those people, you know who you are, and I want to thank you. You have my gratitude. Even those people who I only met online and became the shoooouldeeersss I can lean on, you guys are the best: to think that we haven’t seen each other personally yet you accepted me for who I am (and how crazy I am), thank you, too. Time passed and the problem was resolved.
Another problem came when I turned 4th year XD It’s really funny and weird at the same time on how problems seemed to love me when I hate them the most (Remember the Odyssey play? Haha. It was my fault, too, so it was okay for me to get swarmed by negative stuff). That was when I realized that I should not take things for granted no matter how easy they seem to be done, and that I should stop being a lazy-bum; that I should be a responsible person. In that same year, the idea of the significance of family and friends was reinforced unto me.
Right now that I’m in college, (thankfully) nothing bad happened (except for having annoying professors XD). What I was problematic about was my choice of university that I even thought of transferring to the school that I wished I was in. Not now, though, since I’ve got my friends who are always with me.
Anime!!!
So, how did anime become a very large part of my life? The answer is very easy: I learned a lot from it. Others might always say that it’s just fictional stuff but, hey, it doesn’t matter. Because of anime, I discovered a big part of me and my friends. If it wasn’t for anime, I wouldn’t have even thought of writing stories and stuff, improved my communication skills and became a MassComm student and more importantly, made a fanfiction community where I’ve found most of my closest friends. I picked most of the values that I get in life from them, and lol because of manga I started to appreciate arts and literature.
Another thing: If it wasn’t for my too much love for anime, I wouldn’t have been irresponsible especially during my 4th year in HS. If it wasn’t for that irresponsibility, of course, I would have never known what being responsible was.
Who is Ayyah?
ORYAAAAAAAAAA THAT WAS TOO MUCH DRAMA, FUUUUDGESTICKS! Let’s stop that now. Let’s move on, yeah? ‘Til now, I’m still an anime fan. XD Our online community is still running, and I’m enjoying my college life. I miss my HS friends and some elementary friends, too. Without them, I wouldn’t be the usually (insert description here based on how you see me) me.
GUYS, it’s surprising on how you see me as someone who’s sweet and kind. Are you joking me or what O_O I feel like I’m the bossy-bitch-who-keeps-on-giving-bitchy-advice type, so I wonder how the word kind was able to get into the description O_O But uh, yeah, thanks.
You guys make me feel like I deserve to become a friend and sister, when all the while I thought I was always the ‘third wheel’ - I honestly thought that I don’t deserve to become a friend because I felt like I was a loner (or probably it was just me). I just… kept on making friends as much as I could, and I didn’t know about how much I’ve made progress until this 18th year came. You guys made me feel very special.
To those people who I went to videoke @ Puregold when we were in first year, let me tell you how much fun it was X,D Still can't forget when we used to sing My Chemical Romance and Evanescense songs even if our voices were about to run out.
To those who are still with me and have me inside their hearts even if it has been a long time since I’ve last seen them, thank you. You guys are also in my heart and soul, and I love you.
To my thesis mates, thank you for those fulfilling months. I learned good decision making because of you, guys. You know the rest.
To IV - Basil the Great, thank you for being my kapatids. You guys taught me so many things about what life has to offer. Right now, I could tell that I’m very much prepared for whatever might happen. I also miss you and the old times, guys.
To Imagination: Unleashed family, woohoo! We’ve made this far, and we’re still running. Thank you for teaching me how to trust and love people, and that age and distance is not a hindrance in making strong relationships.
To those who organized the surprise attack party, YOU SUCCESSFULLY CAUGHT ME OFF-GUARD! Damn. X,D Anyway, thank you because at that day, I fully realized my worth.
To Kindles, Bananas and blockmates, thank you for making my college life wonderful. If it weren’t for you guys, I’d still be confused with the university-shizz and anything course-related frustrations. Everyday became wonderful because of you, guys.
To Bunka Koryu Kai (BKK), ありがとうございます！ (To those who can’t read hiragana, oooohohoho >:D) Also, if it weren’t for the daily random conversations + you guys keeping up with my bitchiness/bullying + the fuuuuun, I wouldn’t stay in AdU.
To my family - Mandac Family, thank you for bearing with a lazy daughter/sister like me. Even if I’m not that too much showy, I owe you guys a lot. I promise to do my best in everything that I can, as well as being even more considerate. I’m sorry for everything wrong that I’ve done, and I will do my best to correct them. I know that probably I’m the most distant in our family, and now I will do everything that I can to become closer with every one of you. I love you.
To my mother who I always sleep with inside the kulambo, thank you for bearing with my pagpupuyat, as well as whenever I’m having stomach cramps. I love you and your cooking. Thank you for being the Superwoman of the family-you’re my idol! :D
To my father who's currently in Dubai, I want to tell you that I'm very lucky to be your daughter. Once you come home, I'll hug you verrrrry tight like how I used to whenever you come home. If it weren't for you, there wouldn't be any inspiration for me to work this hard.
Lastly, to GOD, who never failed to be beside me. I know that I’m not that as prayerful as before, but remember that you’re always in my heart-and you know that. :)
Thank you everyone, and I love you.
From the craziest person who just turned 18,
Cathrina Ayyah Gendrano Mandac
PS: The last part made me think of our thesis paper X,D