Smile On His Lips and Cuts On His Hips (23?)

[rose682]

Title: Smile On His Lips and Cuts On His Hips (23/?)
Author: Rose Rose682
Rating: nc-17
Pairing: Jack Barakat/Alex Gaskarth
Summary: I’d lost count of how many had gaped at my arm with shocked expressions and open mouths, curious people unsure of whether or not they wanted to know the answer asking, “Did you cut your arm?”
Disclaimer: I own neither ATL or

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[broken_capulet]

"Alex told me that it made him feel something and reminded him that he was a person who was alive, and I began to eagerly await the day that he would bundle up like a normal person because he didn’t feel the need to put himself through uncomfortable and painful things in order to not be numb."
That part got to me. I think it's pretty crazy the lengths people will go just to feel okay (I'm not really sure if that makes sense, I didn't know how to word that) The mind kind of screws us all over, y'know? It's really sad to see the things people do to feel alive or to feel important. I dunno, it just baffles me. Sometimes when I'm picking a hangnail or something and I feel the pain, it freaks me out the kind of comfort it brings me.
Humans are so significantly messed up.

"It’s so strange how people will do anything to make others happy and confident and then treat themselves like utter shit. Why did the thin white scars lacing Alex’s wrists that I’d picked out under direct light make my chest ache when I hurt myself without blinking an

[rose682]

no, that definitely does make sense, like the crazy shit people'll do. that's actually kind of ironic, how our brains fuck us up which then makes the brain sad - strange, masochistic organs. people turn to the worst solutions far too often, and it is often quite depressing. if i've learned anything from this story, though, it's probably that paining bringing calm isn't actually all that unusual. not nearly as much as i used to believe, that is.
there's definitely something inherently wrong with humans so that our views of ourselves our distorted (often negatively) and also very hard to be corrected by other people, no matter how hard they try. i have absolutely no idea why, but it's nice to think that the things we don't like about ourselves are actually great in other's eyes. hard to believe, yes, but maybe a comforting idea.
this comment is almost as philosophical as the crazy rambling story. and thank you!

[tay_equilibris]

You are a very wise person rose. I admire you from the bottom of my heart. And you write wonderfully.

[rose682]

I don't believe that I have ever been called wise before (maybe once?) but I suppose that's good? And thank you, that's so nice!

[atlkicksass]

I haven't been able to read this chapter until now but w o w. I LOVE this chapter. The meaning behind the last few paragraphs is so amazingly true and you've changed my perspective a bit I believe! What you say about there being so specifically special moments, that they're only different or special because we decide that they are, it's so true. And I've never thought of it that way! You're so intellectual and I absolutely love reading your stuff <3

[rose682]

i always find that actually kind of disappointing because then nothing ever feels as special as i imagine it will be, but i kind of like to think of it that way so it's not as much of a let down. and thank you very much, though i'm not sure if i'm intelectual as much as an insane overthinker