o122; [ of the warm safe places; 12 am on the 19th/ video/text ]
Failed Private;Another year in this place. Four birthdays, and not a single day that takes you out.
It feels like a clockwork of things after a while; no it was a curse, no, it's not your fault, no, you don't know when you'll leave but it'll happen some day. Hello, welcome to the City-- it's not so bad here.
...I feel like I've spent my lifetime saying those words. More to people who don't understand, less to people who might try and understand.
And I wonder how much longer I will have to, without a change in routine, or a single ray of hope that things will change at all.
Most people would hope for excitement-- perhaps I'm hoping for a surprise.
I'm just not sure what kind of surprise would really be worth wanting to stay here for, because now it's clear as day; I'm not sure who I'd be if I went back. Or if Axl would even know me as I've become now.
Just my luck, really.
/Failed Private
I have a feeling someone might have asked this before at some point, but what counts more? The age where time has been stopped for you to be in this place? Or the time in the place you're living?
I'm sure some people would consider the lack of ageing in physical appearance to be a blessing.
A fourth City birthday year and having celebrated four birthdays here-- goodness, it's almost a milestone, isn't it? I seemed to have gotten so wrapped up in work that I didn't even get time to organize anything. Though with all these curses, it just didn't seem right to be celebratory, not with friends going through so much worse. I'll be at work today, though-- it's been rather hectic at the hospital these days especially after that last curse. Besides, turning twenty three isn't exactly all that great without something to remind you that you're not becoming an old woman... or am I still nineteen, no matter what? I do wonder.
I wonder; how many musicians have come to the City in the last year? I'm surprised there isn't more of a music scene now, if there have been more! Music is uplifting enough, though I suppose it has to say something about the mood these days when even I don't feel like picking up my Fender.
Would people like to have another Music Festival like we do on the holidays? If there's enough interest-- we could have a City-wide broadcast, eventually. And with the range of people from other worlds, there's sure to be something for everyone.
ooc; Still on hiatus, but. :D; Oh nostalgia.
It feels like a clockwork of things after a while; no it was a curse, no, it's not your fault, no, you don't know when you'll leave but it'll happen some day. Hello, welcome to the City-- it's not so bad here.
...I feel like I've spent my lifetime saying those words. More to people who don't understand, less to people who might try and understand.
And I wonder how much longer I will have to, without a change in routine, or a single ray of hope that things will change at all.
Most people would hope for excitement-- perhaps I'm hoping for a surprise.
I'm just not sure what kind of surprise would really be worth wanting to stay here for, because now it's clear as day; I'm not sure who I'd be if I went back. Or if Axl would even know me as I've become now.
Just my luck, really.
/Failed Private
I have a feeling someone might have asked this before at some point, but what counts more? The age where time has been stopped for you to be in this place? Or the time in the place you're living?
I'm sure some people would consider the lack of ageing in physical appearance to be a blessing.
A fourth City birthday year and having celebrated four birthdays here-- goodness, it's almost a milestone, isn't it? I seemed to have gotten so wrapped up in work that I didn't even get time to organize anything. Though with all these curses, it just didn't seem right to be celebratory, not with friends going through so much worse. I'll be at work today, though-- it's been rather hectic at the hospital these days especially after that last curse. Besides, turning twenty three isn't exactly all that great without something to remind you that you're not becoming an old woman... or am I still nineteen, no matter what? I do wonder.
I wonder; how many musicians have come to the City in the last year? I'm surprised there isn't more of a music scene now, if there have been more! Music is uplifting enough, though I suppose it has to say something about the mood these days when even I don't feel like picking up my Fender.
Would people like to have another Music Festival like we do on the holidays? If there's enough interest-- we could have a City-wide broadcast, eventually. And with the range of people from other worlds, there's sure to be something for everyone.
ooc; Still on hiatus, but. :D; Oh nostalgia.