I'm a senior, and yes I am here, and alive and doing just a step away from the usually batshit insane that goes along with being a DePauw Student. More particularly, a DePauw Music student...Senior.
I'm writing this entry because for some strange reason, when the days seem to get shorter and my body aches more and more every night as I literally ( Read more... )

1. Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's (example: 1, 2, 3, 4, ...)
2. Repost as "I have lived through ___ of these 158 things."

[1] I have read a lot of books.
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[2 ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[3 ] I have been to Canada.

[ ] I have been to Europe.
[ ] I have watched cartoons for hours.
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I am here, at the shop under the fucking flourescent lights with nowhere to hide just crying and sniffling and thinking of you. My entire heart hurts right now, but I don't know if it is because I'm sorry for what I said to you or afraid that it is all really true. Probably both.
I don't know what to think, or say. I keep trying to stop myself from ( Read more... )

In the last several days the course of my summer has taken a big turn, and not a bad one at yet. I am all of a sudden very booked up! I have decided to go to Quebec Canada for the masterclasses and lessons with Elaine Douvas (Julliard) and Linda Strommen (IU) for only one week from June 25 until July 2. This means that I will miss Tyler's 21st ( Read more... )

Well, I have been home here in Kalamazoo for about a week now and I'm starting to get things organized and feel at home here again. Most of this past week has been spent relaxing and watching those shows about peoples lives on TLC or talking with my Mom about anything and everything. Early in the week my Mom and I made the trip downtown to the ( Read more... )

Jazz History final was fine this morning... I'm just glad that everything is over now. I just get to sit back and relax until Sunday when I can go home after graduation!
I haven't done much of anything today, unless you count the chat and coke with Dr. Pare I had from 1:30-3pm. It made me feel really good to sit down and talk with him today, it gave ( Read more... )

    I have one more exam, tommorrow morning at 8:30am I am priveledged enough to be allowed to indulge in a Jazz History final... Then I am DONE. Well, not really the type of done I would like to be, which is done done and graduating with my lovely pink tassle and B.M. Degree. That is one year from now! I can't believe that I am about to enter the ( Read more... )

Alright, Sorry I know its been suspenseful and horrible but I'll just let you know in a few quick words that...
MY RECITAL WAS AMAZING
I honestly could not have dreamed it to go any better than it did... I was so happy and it just went over like a dream, like I hoped it would. I guess all that practicing five hours a day really kind of does work?
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I can't believe that my recital is now almost only TWO days away! TWO!
Today was a normal Wednesday, I skipped Caribbean History to practice for my lesson which consisted of me going through the Britten for Anna, and her working on a good orchestra\practice reed for me which I then cracked down the middle in a freak accident later this afternoon. I ( Read more... )

Some people talk to a therapist, others use painting or other art forms as a means of releasing stress and tension, some people drink, while others shop, I of course do the last two, but my favorite is writing in my journal... always has been... always will be.
I am by no means a great orator of any kind, I speak best through my written words and ( Read more... )