Once again I feel lonely, like I have no friends at all. Once upon a time there use to be people who cared about me, and we would hang out on the weekends...talk, laugh, giggle about guys we liked, discuss deepest aspects of the heart, sometimes philosophy...Friends are my outlit, my corner stone. And to feel like there are none, is like having ( Read more... )

The counceling session wasn't bad at all...in fact, I very much enjoyed it! I got to speak openly about my mom without her getting pissed or offended, and it was cool. She really has grown, and matured alot in the past few years...I do have to give her credit there. Dad...on the other hand, has simply gotten worse...but I learned somethings about ( Read more... )

Well, I got my hair cut...in the shortest style I've ever pulled off. I probably look like a guy now, but you know what? I don't care, because I love it. It felt great to get it all cut off, no more hair hanging in my face, or on my neck...its nice. Its all spikey too. I think its adorable, though I doubt other people will agree ( Read more... )

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When will stop taking things for granted? People...friendships...paper, and pens...trees, and air...hundreds of invisible communicators. Inner courage, inner strength, imagination...talent...the minds eye. And itch on the skin, words...emotions...knowledge....

Well...there's a job opportunity for the first 3 weeks of August. It pays $700 which would only be too useful for going back to college. The position is a camp councelor...which is, fun. Or it could be...people seem to enjoy it enough to keep on going back. But I don't know...working with people...I'm scared of people, but with an attitude like ( Read more... )

I had...so many bizarre dreams last night...yet again ( Read more... )

I'm pissed at myself, and at the world.

Jam and I had some great discussions today ( Read more... )