I need Help

[rosepunkslut]

ok i know like no one sees this but i don't care i brokedown yestrday like i was crying,sobing,listening to "hold on" by good charlotte and all at shit. i have alot of shit going on in my life right now my dad was killed in a car crash last year i still haven't really dealed with it and now my mom as a boyfriend and i don't like him much but i want

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[pdslashforever]

I'm going with you tommorow, so don't worry about that. And you know I'll stick around for as long as you want me too. hell, I've pretty much broken up with Ben for you, if his reaction last night was anything to go by. So guess what sis, your stuck with me! Love ya

[veggielover]

Hey, I know how feels to want to just die. And get it over with. I know how it feels, I don't know how many times or how many cuts and blood I shed because I felt like that, until I found someone to listen. But I do still have my moments. Thignsi s those doctors don't know shit unless they've been through it, which most of them haven't, and parents don't really understand either because theynever listen or just look. My mom was a cutter and my dad asked me to kill him when I was nine, so I know how it feels to be like that, to feel that way. But I found someone who listens and with the music I love (gc w/hold on) I made it through, so if you every need to talk to anyone, I am all ears. Love you.

[rosepunkslut]

thanks veggie i need it and it's funny my mom asked me how i would kill myself and i said i didn't know how i do it too think about it i could shoot myself i have alot of guns in my house that were my dad's or overdos on pills i have alot of them and if i did kill myself i overdos myself i'm too scared to cut myself or shoot myself and i've thought about killing myself for years but i am too scared to do it and i was told if u kill yourself u go to hell and never see the ones u love again soo i think that is why i'm still here i'm scared,afarid of not seeing my dad again and the music like good charlotte and their songs keep me here and songs by simple plan they have a song called perfect world and it sounds like the guys got in my head and wrote what i feel about my dad when he was killed and i love it soo much and i when and saw gc and sp two weeks ago and i wanted to go to the meet and greet but my mom said no which pissed me off soo bad i wanted to meet them and tell them how much they mean to me and tell them that they are saving

[veggielover]

I've met pierre so far, and just I do know how it feels, but it sucks you couldn't stay. But no where does it say you'll go to hell for killing yourself, no where. People say that because they think it's stupid and they dont want others to do it, I am not supporting but no where does it state that. But with the world around us and the pressure and bullshit it seems as the best way, but I cant because there's things I still want to d oin life and I see that now, but it's always gonna hurt no matter what, but I will listen if you need it. Promise. Besides you can't go, we still need you here. :)

[rosepunkslut]

thanks veggie for every thing and its funny to think about it i've only have been told i can't go because i need to be here by five poeple u ,jesse my best friend ,my mom,lilly,and my dad when i told him i wanted to kill myself befor he was killed and it means so much that there are poeplp out there who care about me even if there is not that many and man i would do any thing to meet pierre and yes i am weird i'm ADHD and thank u for listening to a kid like me love ya forever ROSE

[masochisticbaby]

Im really sorry your having a hard time Rose. Like I said to you, just have faith, keep strong and you will be okay, I wish you all the best sweetie

Hugs Lilly
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