if I could understand better why when faced with some impending deadline or big task I sometimes freeze up and feel like doing nothing, rather than starting right away and putting in work,, if I could understand why I can do that sometimes and not all the time, maybe I could work the reasons to my favour ( Read more... )

slow and steady things are getting back together

I've cut some people out and slowly, some people joining back in.

it'll take time, as most things do

time heals, time helps

slow, steady paces to get to the ideals

Something I need to learn to do is to take myself seriously. Here's a selection of quotes from an article I read back in May that has stuck by me:

"What happens when you don’t take yourself seriously? You resent people who do. You look at people who promote themselves and their ideas and you think they’re egotistical or ridiculous. [...] You get ( Read more... )

i did my mid way work term evaluation with my manager last week and at the end of our discussion, she offered me a full time position after my degree was completed. she said she understood that i wanted to try for my cs minor, and that there were opportunities for me to learn with our sister company if i ever wanted to get into the software side of ( Read more... )

work was the same as usual today until the afternoon hit and i suddenly felt fantastic! solving puzzles on how to filter out the city of k's fleet management trip history report really was a fun project that has been dragging on too long, i hope to have it solved tomorrow with the project manager ( Read more... )

if i keep myself busy then i wont have the time to think about other "trivial" things ( Read more... )

euros, copa, olympis.... it's all happening this summer and some years back i would be estatic ( Read more... )

as title

when did the days I would stay up late at night to write stories disappear

was it when I made my writing hobby into my major and it became a chore instead of of a joy ?

here's something you've all heard before: me, saying again and again and again that i am going to stop drinking and that i will learn to deal with my stresses and have fun in some other way ( Read more... )