Sadness......
No words can described how I feel right now... for the first time... I cried over some thing..... I now really know, how Ryon and Fuu feel......
One of my hamster died today. I was just about to give her a drink and when I open her box, it's strange that she didn't move at all, just lying there.. like sleeping...
so I shake the box... no response either......
Usually when I just make a little shock, or open the box she will wake up and look up and wait for my hand to come in...
Now, not anymore, she is dead. When seeing her lying there, I only stared at her without moving a bit, I was quite shock really and I cried but I quickly wipe my tears because my mom was there... and probably she will laugh at me if she saw me crying... because she never know I was such a crybaby... she rarely saw me cry ^^;
But really, I'm sad, and I regret it because yesterday, I didn't take a look at her at all. I only saw my brother played with the other one and I didn't even take a look if she is still alright or not yesterday. Last monday when I cleaned her home, I picked her up and give her a drink... that's the last time... but that time, I already felt weird... because she was just so light... I remembered when she was too fat, she is really heavy and last monday she is way too light and she didn't even finish all her food.... I regret for not seeing her yesterday.....
But I'm glad she didn't die in scary way... she really died in peace... if you didn't know she is dead... it was like she was just sleeping...
I really understand how it feels now when you lose a pet.. just like how Ryon and Fuu feels... eventhough mine was just a hamster.. but I love her very much...
that picture was taken when she died... she is really in peace... And because I didn't have a backyard... I can't bury her... I can only wrap her up in a newspaper... and then put her in a plastic bag... That's a very sad way to bury your pet.... but I have no choice.... :(