i feel like crap. i might punch something ( Read more... )

so i went to Rowan yesterday to get so financial aid stuff worked out and whatnot ( Read more... )

I didn't think it was possible to have so many people in my life and feel like I have no one to talk to that understands me.
all the people who I think I can confide in turn around and use it against me.
all the people who I want to confide in don't care or want to listen, even though they're the closest to me.
I feel so ridiculously alone.

cars dying costs too much money and i hate being driven around. 279+$? that sucks and i feel equally bad that i can't pay for all of it myself. if only it had waited until november, then i wouldn't have to bother my dad. he's done alot for the beautiful car and i feel like he shouldn't have to do any more ( Read more... )

i miss rowan. i miss my hott friends and i miss the student center and the book store and the cafe the library mm and all the rest of the campus and i miss classes and writing and professors and my friends and my friends ( Read more... )

the beach with mommy was nice ( Read more... )

so I tried to late for the Muse tickets ( Read more... )

new layout :O)

sooo our floor set was last night ( Read more... )

is it so much to ask for proof?
word's are easy to say, and it's really easy to lie, so when I'm nervous and need reassurance, physical proof would go alot farther. right? nothing crazy, just make me feel it. I've lost touch with words and find it hard to believe them anymore unless followed by an equal action. I feel like I'm dissapearing. I don't