I dont know what to do with myself. I have nothing to do. Its 10 am and i have two hours to read i suppose, but what i read doesnt make any sense becuse i dont understand my class. what happened?

I'm at my sisters house. Yep. I feel really weird right now. Its kind of like, i feel like im constantly screaming inside or something. i just feel like shit all the time. maybe i think about it too much, but my life went down the crapper and im trying to pick up the pieces.

Its from one of the oldest creation stories known to man ( Read more... )

I feel like i'm falling apart.

I havent written in here in a while. I mean, actual journal stuff. THings have been going pretty well. yep. thats all i got for now i suppose.

HE AWOKE IN THE SILENCE OF DAWN, STRICKEN WITH A BACK ACHE
HE AWOKE IN THE SILENCE OF DAWN WITH THE
STRANGEST
FUCKING
FEELING.
IT WAS LIKE LOVE
IT WAS LIKE A GUN
GOING OFF IN HIS MOUTH
SHADES OF CRIMSON HITTING THE WALL
IN WONDERFUL PATTERNS OF MEANING.

your hands tonight ( Read more... )

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Soooo yeah. alright. sweet.

I had crazzzzzzy dreams last night, which means i spent most of my night in deep rem. how lovely! I'm too maniccy or energetic or something to write them down. But yeah trust me when i say they were crazy. I keep dreaming about babies, its really weird. My sister says its post traumatic stress from my experience in the mental hospitals, and i ( Read more... )