She broke the silence with a sigh and he seemed to jerk back to consciousness, coming out of his deep realm of thought. She looked over at him with pleading eyes, but he kept his gaze straight ahead, focused on the steering wheel. Her fingers pulled at the tips of cotton black gloves on the opposite hand in a worrisome fashion while she tried to ( Read more... )

"She wouldn't be as beautiful if she weren't so fucked up..."

Time to dissect myself. Pre-mort em autopsy. I'm passive aggressive. Sarcastic & cynical like every other New Yorker. Little Miss Suicide-by-Chocolate. I'm a lush; I don't know self-control. I'm the whore next door. I'm also fine with that. I'm judgmental but open-minded, tolerant & ( Read more... )

My typical day: Wake up to the sound of my alarm, try to ignore it for a few minutes before I get annoyed & turn it off. Immediately get out of bed & grab my towels off my closet door & hop in the shower. Afterwards, spend about twenty minutes what I'm going to wear that day, brush my hair out & put on makeup. Brush teeth. I usually have the ( Read more... )

I keep thinking how I want to change...I want to be strong; get past what is hard in my life. I want to change my diet, become a vegetarian, stop eating so much junk food. Stop smoking. For good. Don't drink to get drunk. People love just the same. Cry more; it keeps you humble. Laugh more because I'm tired of letting the drama get to me. Don't get ( Read more... )

I am finally home from my trip to Florida. I have more shells than I know what to do with [two are special for us].

Check out dusted_pixie for pictures.

Likes:Silver jewelry. Using makeup as an art medium. The smell of bleach on my hands-it reminds me of my old babysitter Gigi. Clean sheets. Puppy yawns. Cranking up "Bittersweet Symphony" on my drive home- I blast that so loud it makes my ears bleed...I don't care how cheesy it sounds, I want that played at my funeral, I think its the one of the ( Read more... )

"Having someone you love with all your heart & soul & not love you back is like trying to sit down in a chair you know was there, but having it pulled out from underneath you. Sure, you're hurt but more than anything, you're shocked & stunned. You were so certain it was right there waiting for you."

-Durvell Smith

My list of men in Hollywood that I would love to shag.

I actually want to be in a porn with:
1. Johnny Depp
2. Ewan McGregor
3. Jude Law
4. Orlando Bloom

Older men, but still good-looking:
1. Brad Pitt
2. Harrison Ford
3. Val Kilmer
4. Gary Oldman
5. Alan Rickman
6. Sean Connery
7. Viggo Mortensen
8. Rob Lowe

Who Can Make Me Laugh:1. Eddie ( Read more... )

P.S.- I have a new screenname on AIM: BellaRenard

Some of my favorite things:

The smell of gasoline. The taste of honey. Late spring & early autumn evenings. The song of morning doves. Violins. Bruises (as well). Freshly paved asphalt. The smell of Nag Champa incense (probably one of my most favorite things in this world). Kissing--all sorts of kissing:quick pecks on the cheek, goodbye kisses, ( Read more... )