no, i can't take one more step towards you
Who: futariniousama and restardom
Where: Some park in Goldenrod!
When: Friday, August 26, in the late afternoon.
Summary: Niou should probably have told her this already. Does 'better late than never' apply here?
Rating: PG-13 for Niou's mouth, potentially?
[ Niou lounges on the bench, the picture of repose and carelessness, but he's deep in troubled thought.
Should he have told her sooner? Yeah, probably. Can he get away with not telling her at all? Maybe for a while.
Does he want to hurt her that much? No. Not at all.
Not when she's just learning to trust him. He knows the feeling, he knows the signs. He's been her, not so long ago, and he wants to be for her what Yagyuu's been for him, but - it doesn't really work that way, does it? She deserves someone's full attention, and Niou is reluctantly coming to the conclusion that he can't give her that. He's too much like her in some ways, too weak in others. He depends so much on Yagyuu, how can he expect to be able to support Rise when she needs it?
Forward is Rise, tempting, beautiful, completely fucking bewitching in a way he's never seen a girl manage before. She can keep up with him, she's adorable and just slightly sensual, and Niou wants her so badly he can't stand himself when she's around. But forward is frightening, too, because he knows that if he really wants to do it right, he's going to have to let go of Yagyuu.
No, it won't be a tragic, heartwrenching goodbye. They'll still be friends, partners, but there'll be a new distance between them, and Niou will have to learn to stand without him, a prospect which has, of late, seemed more daunting than ever.
And backward is Yagyuu, familiar, flawless, utter fucking perfection for someone as high-strung as Niou is. Maybe destiny is a thing, or maybe Yagyuu has just molded himself so completely to Niou that neither of them can tell the difference anymore. Were they yin and yang from the start, or did they develop that way? It doesn't matter.
Six months without him has proven to Niou that a future without Yagyuu is bleak at best. Even if he'd managed to move on, months or years from now, there would always be this aching void in his life. That void had festered and grown for half a year, and if left longer, Niou's sure it would have consumed him eventually.
So he has to wonder, will a rift between them bring the same result? If he moves forward (frightened, uncertain, but maybe in love), will that void reopen and start all over again?
And if he moves back (relieved, in love, and maybe a bit heartbroken), will Rise be okay?
With a frustrated sound, he sits upright, opening the 'Gear that's been lying uselessly in his hand all afternoon. Before he can change his mind, he starts typing. ]
hey.
i'm at the park. you should join me.
Where: Some park in Goldenrod!
When: Friday, August 26, in the late afternoon.
Summary: Niou should probably have told her this already. Does 'better late than never' apply here?
Rating: PG-13 for Niou's mouth, potentially?
[ Niou lounges on the bench, the picture of repose and carelessness, but he's deep in troubled thought.
Should he have told her sooner? Yeah, probably. Can he get away with not telling her at all? Maybe for a while.
Does he want to hurt her that much? No. Not at all.
Not when she's just learning to trust him. He knows the feeling, he knows the signs. He's been her, not so long ago, and he wants to be for her what Yagyuu's been for him, but - it doesn't really work that way, does it? She deserves someone's full attention, and Niou is reluctantly coming to the conclusion that he can't give her that. He's too much like her in some ways, too weak in others. He depends so much on Yagyuu, how can he expect to be able to support Rise when she needs it?
Forward is Rise, tempting, beautiful, completely fucking bewitching in a way he's never seen a girl manage before. She can keep up with him, she's adorable and just slightly sensual, and Niou wants her so badly he can't stand himself when she's around. But forward is frightening, too, because he knows that if he really wants to do it right, he's going to have to let go of Yagyuu.
No, it won't be a tragic, heartwrenching goodbye. They'll still be friends, partners, but there'll be a new distance between them, and Niou will have to learn to stand without him, a prospect which has, of late, seemed more daunting than ever.
And backward is Yagyuu, familiar, flawless, utter fucking perfection for someone as high-strung as Niou is. Maybe destiny is a thing, or maybe Yagyuu has just molded himself so completely to Niou that neither of them can tell the difference anymore. Were they yin and yang from the start, or did they develop that way? It doesn't matter.
Six months without him has proven to Niou that a future without Yagyuu is bleak at best. Even if he'd managed to move on, months or years from now, there would always be this aching void in his life. That void had festered and grown for half a year, and if left longer, Niou's sure it would have consumed him eventually.
So he has to wonder, will a rift between them bring the same result? If he moves forward (frightened, uncertain, but maybe in love), will that void reopen and start all over again?
And if he moves back (relieved, in love, and maybe a bit heartbroken), will Rise be okay?
With a frustrated sound, he sits upright, opening the 'Gear that's been lying uselessly in his hand all afternoon. Before he can change his mind, he starts typing. ]
hey.
i'm at the park. you should join me.