right. that's the biggest load of crap I've ever hurd. I dont' use my mental disorder for every mistake. I take responcibility for it. But not like you understand what it's like, I don't ecspect you to or to care. I don't drag about the condition, I brag about surviving it. Cursing is my rebelion. I don't think you would understand that. But you never complained one god damn bit when we still hung out. Do you have any idea how much it hurt that you didn't even call me once when you were gone? That you didn't do shit with me? I've know you for how long? Is it logical that you go away to camp and come back and you sever our relationship b/c of some ties you made w/ AGS ppl and I'm put on the back burner again. You're no better then Thea or Becca when it comes down to it. It's true what they say, AGS does brain wash people. Fuck...I knew you would never change. My big God damn mistake.
I'm sorry you feel that way. I didn't complain because I didn't want you to be mad at me. I didn't call anyone while at AGS. That was sort of the point. You're supposed to be isolated from friends and family. Finally, I've never been to a camp. And AGS isn't a camp. Not a camp at all. It's Arkansas Governor's School.
And if I'm such a bad person, maybe you are too good for me, in which case you should stop burdening yourself with this and leave me alone to writhe in the fact that I've become such a monstrosity.
Oh get over yourself. I'm not claiming to be good. I'm a fucking monster if you want me to be honest, but I don't have a bubble to burst baby. I'm a Sadist, a whore, a bitch. I know I am and if anyone says I'm sweet they don't know me. I thought you did but that was all a flash in the pan like everything is to you. What are you going to do when you go away to college? That's twice as better then Governer School! And ten times as inlightening! What's going to happen then?
I'm not burdening myself. I'm trying to make you feel the sameway I do when I look at you and all the good memories come flooding back and I feel robbed. I want that little hole you poked in my heart to be mirrored in your's.
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Do you have any idea how much it hurt that you didn't even call me once when you were gone? That you didn't do shit with me? I've know you for how long? Is it logical that you go away to camp and come back and you sever our relationship b/c of some ties you made w/ AGS ppl and I'm put on the back burner again. You're no better then Thea or Becca when it comes down to it. It's true what they say, AGS does brain wash people. Fuck...I knew you would never change. My big God damn mistake.
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And if I'm such a bad person, maybe you are too good for me, in which case you should stop burdening yourself with this and leave me alone to writhe in the fact that I've become such a monstrosity.
~Sarah
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I'm not burdening myself. I'm trying to make you feel the sameway I do when I look at you and all the good memories come flooding back and I feel robbed. I want that little hole you poked in my heart to be mirrored in your's.
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