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I've been losing my grip again. That breakdown drained me. But from the bottom there is no where to go but up. I live in constant pains of my own making created by my antithesis: false illusions. I am a master manipulator and thespian and the honesty of those gets to me. I am keeping everyone a safe distance now because there are things I just can't handle if I let them close.
I desire things I can eiter never have or never have for a long long time. I am unsteady in my current life path but unable to truely alter it unless I exert all my currently drained energies toward that goal and then wherever I end up is a mater of chance. I could do great things but I am held back both by myself and some unseen force. I know I am stronger and better than this and yet I am not. I can feel a greater mee inside and yet I remain chained in desolation at my current and unchangable level.
And to top it all off I can;t go to Danny anymore to solve all my problems because he has his own. Plus we are closer to the same level than ever before.
*Pride
***Envy
Gluttony
*****Lust
***Anger
*Greed
**Sloth
The only sin I am not experiencing is Gluttony because I am just not eating. But my most troubling sin is Lust followed closely by my Anger an Envy. The three always travel together too no sin being alone to me. My Pride and Greed are minor but noted sins. Especially Pride they two are sins I only note when myself falls into an extreme. And finally working nights I work and sleep and have fallen prey to the grip of Sloth.
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Wait a sec. I admit I rant but I do research to make it palpitable but this is:
When Pope Gregory defined the seven deadly sins that we should avoid, he also included a counter-balancing set of values that we should espouse and adopt. These are:
Faith is belief in the right things (including the virtues!).
Hope is taking a positive future view, that good will prevail.
Charity is concern for, and active helping of, others.
Fortitude is never giving up.
Justice is being fair and equitable with others.
Prudence is care of and moderation with money.
Temperance is moderation of needed things and abstinence from things which are not needed.
The first three of these are known as the Spiritual Virtues, whilst the last four are called the Chief or Natural Virtues. The Natural Virtues had already been defined by Greek philosophers, whilst the Spiritual Virtues are a slight variation on St. Paul's trio of Love, Hope and Faith (strange how love has disappeared!).
YOU ASS! THE WORD CHARITY IS IN HEBREW THE SAME FOR LOVE! >_< Ignorance level rising... Wrath proportionate. I can't stand ignorance in the face of the Father. (Or worse the Mother)