My day

[rowankline]

So...day one of the funeral process is over. Visitation was okay and I saw a lot of my dad's friends. Dad is having a hard time, but who would not be if they found their mom kneeling next to her hospital bed, purple and icy cold to the touch. God, why did it have to be my dad? Why couldn't it be a hospice worker or someone prepared for this? He is

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[symian]

It is hard, I know. Keep the faith, because it gets easier.

[rowankline]

Thank you. I never cried about my Great Aunts. I was too young to understand the loss. The last few days I have cried and cried. It will get easier, I know. There will always be a hole or a void there. The funny thing is, I don't mind because that means I will never forget any of them.

[lastimestanding]

my favorite relatives are all gone

at least you still have your dad! they aren't all gone!

i am sorry he is not himself:-\ and also, clearly, sorry for your loss.
*hug*

(email me your address so i can send you things! (if you want crap mail!)

[rowankline]

Thanks on both counts. I have my mom and stepdad too, but arizona is so far to drive for a hug and a decent meal that I just don't make it all that often!

I will most surely email you with the address!

[rowankline]

I need your email tho to do it. Katy Bean has it too.

[rowankline]

They were there within 45 minutes, as were the local police, fire and rescue etc. He tries so hard to show that he is okay but being his one and only daughter, I can see through it.

I agree that she visited me, I believe in that stuff too. I gotta have faith that I get to see all of them again. I always knew where I stood with them. They were always there for me, even when I was sure I didn't need them. We went out to dinner with dad and his gf, Steve's parents and dad's friend John. Dad is really not himself, but a few good inside jokes helped. I worry a lot because my dad is my lifeline and I am pretty much his.