I found out one of my favorite couples broke up. I am taking it a lot harder than I should. I don't know why it makes me so sad ( Read more... )

pre-interview went well today. I should be called back for a second interview soon. If all goes as planned I could be working at my new job by the end of this month.

It is time things turn around for me. I can't wait. I think this is going to be a really good summer

Sometimes I feel like I am just wearing this fat suit that I should be able to just unzip and take off. I feel like this body is not mine. I feel like I am small. When I look in the mirror, I can hardily believe this is my body.

All of this makes me want to eat, how messed up is that?

Okie dokie....I have an interview tomorrow. If I do not get this job I am going to throw myself under the first MUNI train that comes. I am being pushed to my limit at my current job. Any moment, I could snap and it will be ugly ( Read more... )

I have decided that I am tired of being fat. I will no longer be fat. I will not eat out of boredom, anger or depression. I will eat when I am hungry only. I will no longer consume candy at work (hell I don't even like candy!).

Today is May 16th. I swear that by June 16th, I will have lost 10 lbs.

Dave Chapelle tix went on sale at 10:00 this morning. I attempted to buy them for 20 minutes but they were sold out by like 10:01. FUCK. I really wanted to see him. Oh well, maybe he will come back this summer.

Why am I up at this god awful hour?

After reading what everyone said in my little LJ survey, I feel so odd. Everyone was so kind. Everyone commented on my looks, which blows me away. I just don't see myself as anything but odd looking. It is so weird to hear people say that they think I am attractive. Good looking would be the last thing I would ever call myself. I know y'all wouldn' ( Read more... )

I need a new job. I keep applying for jobs that I am so qualified for and I hear nothing back. This is so frustrating!

Showbiz Moms and Dads is on tonight!!!!!!! You better not forget.