And So it Seems...

[rox4rolls]

Moral obligation. Moral imperative.

This is why I work. This is why I drive myself so hard. If I don't, so much will have been wasted on me. I'm bound to do good things with this life. These hands will save lives.

"When I'm dead I'll rest."

Comments

[emily_jane]

Do you really see it all as an obligation? In 10 years will this "obligation" sustain you?

[rox4rolls]

No, the profession itself is not an obligation. The obligation comes in the form of devotion to the pursuit of knowledge and optimum work ethic. Being in medical school is a blessing and I'm absolutely positive it's what I want to do with my life. However, there are varying degrees of intensity at which one can approach medical school. You can "pass" and get your degree and practice, or you can really push yourself to be the best you can possibly be. I'm realizing that to forego applying oneself to the fullest extent would be a colossal waste of your time, the school's time, and someone who may have wanted your spot in medical school's time and efforts. In other words, I'm searching for something to define why I find myself sitting here at school at 12:30 on a Tuesday night still studying when everyone else has gone home. Perhaps "obligation" may not be the appropriate term to use... Maybe "compulsion?" I don't know... Whatever it is, it's damn strong and not allowing me to go home and go to bed...

[emily_jane]

Well, in that case, I believe it speaks to your dedication (not compulsion!). When you're done, you'll be a much better doctor than the ones at home in bed. Define it as your desire to be good...no great...at what you do and not simply to "get by".

Your future patients will thank you!

[thinkpink55]

I know the feeling. Sometimes (often) I feel if I don't do something great (and in my mind, that equates to becoming a doctor), I too feel that I will have wasted all the gifts/blessings/curses bestowed upon me. I could say more, but then, you know, my secrets will be revealed. :-p