I used to know you like the back of my hand
Until today you held your place
Now you're shifting like the sand
Your chest would heave with pride if I were spoken of
'Till tonight I never knew the difference between comfort and love

Although you're sleeping right next to me
Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream
leading a life that ( Read more... )

I've come to the conclusion that no one in my life right now is real. No one tells the truth no one is true to themselves. I thought I was on the outside looking in but I too have become so caught up in the midst of deception I didn't realize I became what I hated. I wanted to become something else. Not until a few years ago did I want to ( Read more... )

I never thought I'd actually drive by my house and feel too unwanted and uncomfortable to go inside. Last night I left Candace's house early b/c she had to work the next morning (this morning). I went to Shereen's for a little and came home to a drive way full of cars.. A birthday celebration that I wasn't invited to, nor was I welcome to.. at MY ( Read more... )

I have no faith in love or relationships. Everyone lies and decieves. EVERYONE. No one is who they say they are. No one is innocent. No one cares about the sanctity of sex or love. No one has respect for who they allege to be their "significant other" No one gives a shit anymore. Who was I kidding?? I thought I could manage a relationship and ( Read more... )

Having inflicted pain on you is by far worse than any pain I've ever felt. For that I apologize, although simple words will never take back the hurt.. If only my love could take it away.. if only the pain I feel could erase your pain. But alas.. that can never be. But I will no longer condemn you or hold in.

I hate drama.

I'm so tired of people acting like children. Haven't we graduated high school? I know I did. Im trying to leave the drama behind.. I'm trying not to let my emotions get the best of me.. I'm trying to be mature. At the very least act my age. Maybe I'm just angry because there is nothing I can do about it. Mabye it is all my fault. But I'm not going ( Read more... )

I am beyond confused? I don't even dare to go into further detail. I don't want to make assumptions. I don't want to analyze anything. I'll just let it be and see what happens.. Thats the only thing I HAVEN'T done.

Well the past couple days I have kept myself occupied with Candace's Princess Leia costume.. as many of you know tonight is the premier of the new Star Wars episode three "Revenge of the Sith" and Candace, Chris and 14 other Star Wars Fans are going dressed up as characters from the Star Wars Movies.. Candace chose Princess Leia and I told her I ( Read more... )

I'm not going far.. I just need to get away from all the drama in my life.. I'm taking a mental vacation.. no boys.. no work.. no school... NO DRAMA!!!! And when I get back I'm leaving the drama behind!!!!!!!