woke up around 11 this morning.
sat around for a while.
got up the motivation to eat some food.
on the way to get out of cody's room she blacked out and we just sat on the floor being insane for a while.
made breakfast.
first i burned myself picking up a pan but not so bad.
then not even 5 minutes later cody did the same damn thing but burned her hand ( Read more... )

eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
the fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
and even though youre next to me i still feel so alone
i just cant give you anything for you to call your own
and i can feel you breathing
and its keeping me awake
can you feel it beating
my hearts sinking
like a wave

i can make believe that ( Read more... )

have not done much of anything today. slept finally. uhm. got up for maybe a couple of hours, i don't really remember. then i went right back to sleep. had some really weird dreams. REALLY weird.

my sister tells me that my dad is not telling the police to press charges anymore. and that the maid was for some odd reason outside by the trees (what ( Read more... )

uhh. just woke up. finally crashed early this morning. slept like a dead guy. talked to cody in my sleep hahah. apparently i said some WEIRD shit. then we were nicely woken up by hope's phone ringing ( Read more... )

p.s. i forgot to mention. this morning when i was hallucinating out on the balcony. i was looking at this white like 94 accord in the parking lot. like two rows away from where i was. and i SWEAR, there was chinese people in it. and they were waving at me. and there was a baby dancing on the dashboard. i'm not lying. and i got up to look. and they ( Read more... )

soo. happy new years, right?
maybe. maybe not. =\

uhm. i haven't slept in over 2 days nor have i eaten anything. that's all thanks to illegal substances.
in which i did NOT overdose on.

eh.

i don't want to die.

that's so pathetic/lame/weak.

jerk.
^that's to me, from me.

my dad went to the hospital yesterday and had to get an emergency shot to ( Read more... )

i wonder how much longer i can go on living like this ( Read more... )

uhm ( Read more... )

shitty ( Read more... )

as we speak my dad is calling the cops on me ( Read more... )