so i miss some ppl alot at the moment...and i know how i lost them...i didnt give them the time of day or i didnt treat em right...but i can think of a good five friends who i havent hung out with in at least a week...maybe more with some...i just want things better again...im trying i really am...but its so easy to want to be with the one i dont ( Read more... )

i suppose i should be pleased with somethings in my life...but all the bad just keeps rising above the good...i should be happy (& i kinda am) i have someone who cares but i keep wanting the fantasy...the perfect love...i know theres no such thing in this world but that doesnt keep me from wanting it...theres that then the thought of how dependent ( Read more... )

the more i look at things the more concerning they get. What is the point in planning for the future, doing for the future, waiting for the future, when we are yet mere mortals?? we could die at any second, yet we live most our lives planning for future minutes we may not be granted. wasteful ( Read more... )

Here i find myself closing the final bit of yet another chapter in my life. And looking back im questioning whether my ending is satisfying, r u still enticed, r u on the edge of ur seat yet?? Perhaps ive ran out of fancy words and tricky plot twists ( Read more... )

I'M FREE!!!!!!

ive discover myself conflicted once again in this life...ive learned im never satisfied with the choices laid out before me as if a buffet of the future. never completely content with my days, only once in those long whiles do i have one of those days u think were perhaps a dream, where everything went the way u wanted, and nothing not a single ( Read more... )

perhaps we tried too hard to recreate something which has long eroded into ruins of a perfect situation, a perfect understanding of wants and needs. the innocences which acted as our glue was wiped away with our own innocences. ive been told not to live in my past but to embrace my present, yet still we tried, can anyone blame us for that, for ( Read more... )

so once again the lil girl discovers she is indeed between a rock and a hard place. how does she always find herself in these situations?? perhaps she is too naive or maybe she was never certain of what her lil heart desires. but which ever the case she is in this sticky spot. she once more has thrown herself upon the warm velvety beach and once ( Read more... )

oh how they trick us with these happy endings and fairie tale lives ( Read more... )

i absolutely hate ending up where i started, i hate making progress but then slip slowly back down
why cant progression last?