Totally fucking pumped that we are playing Holst in Wind Symphony. Sometimes it crosses my mind that I oughta do something in my life with music. I have soooo much passion for music, it makes me feel a way that nothing else makes me feel. It can bring up feelings that nothing else can bring up. It can change my mood compltely upside-down, happy ( Read more... )

This weekend was great. Simply kickass. I couldn't have asked for more. Well, maybe to get more than 2 hours of sleep Sunday night/Monday morning but hey, I guess it's a trade-off. I was sooooo happy to see the bf and spend some quality time. I'm not gonna sit here and write about how lucky I am and how great he is because I think everyone ( Read more... )

P.S. my eyes are brown not blue. incase you were counting on that or something

Sorry. I usually don't do these things, but I I will do anything right now to delay even thinking about my chem test tomorrow. So here goes ( Read more... )

On my imaginary top-ten list of Jackie's favorite things, The smell of the beginning of Spring is included. Did that sentence make sense? Anyways, all day today was spent recording for wind symphony. From 8:30 in the morning to 7 pm. On my breaks I was so surprised to see how beautiful it was outside. I laid on the thing outside FAC today in ( Read more... )

Why do people ask other people how they are as a greeting? It doesn't make any sense at all. Even if you feel shitty, even if you want to die, you say "fine" or even "good." If you said "man, I really would rather be dead right now," that would start a whole huge conversation. When they asked what was wrong you'd hafta sit down and tell them ( Read more... )

Yeah, so being home is stupid and awkward. I hate everything about Dport, everything reminds me of what's happening. On the other hand though, I don't want to go back to school either. I am so uncomfortable there. This is a really shitty place to be. I feel like the comfort of home has dropped out from under me and now I don't belong anywhere ( Read more... )

Being home is weird since shit went down. Or rather, since it was decided that shit will be going down. Got home yesterday for the first time since and didn't know what to expect. Yesterday was ok, it looked like things were managable. Today was worse, I broke down numerous times. My mom is always open to "talk," but what the fuck to I ask?! ( Read more... )

You know what I think is stupid ( Read more... )

Damn, it's been a while eh? I guess I haven't updated because I've been dealing with a lot of major shit that I don't really want to share with the Livejournal world. Sorry, guys ( Read more... )