Honestly, I don't know if I want to have kids anymore. I don't even have a boyfriend. I don't know if I want to put my body through that. I don't know if I'm capable of raising a kid.

I DONT KNOW.

Finally feeling more healthier lately. Thank God. Thanksgiving definitely felt strange.

Monday was full of events. I had a virtual interview for ADP and I was so stressed about it. Long story short, I didn't tank it like I did the first time. Later that afternoon, my mom left the stove on while we went to the store, I came home to the smoke filled ( Read more... )

Just waiting. Dreading the results.

also struggle typing with my freshly done nails... I really shouldn't because I got them shorter. That is irritating as hell.

(& two more days til I order the iPhone 12 pro max. small victories)

All of this depresses me. What am I even here forost for months now. I am struggling so much personally. I’m dizzy and losing my balance all the time. I never wear heels anymore. That’s not like me at all. I’m known for always being in heels. I can’t even stand/walk in them.  I’m a shell of the person I used to be.  I hardly speak out loud so now I ( Read more... )

6 am our power went out and this “hurricane” took over the city. Six hours later, winds reaching 65 mph, and still restless the electricity came back on. Today was a weird day.

Today I had my right eye done. I can officially see way better out of both of my eyes. I still will need glasses but... here’s to buying new glasses. I threw out all my contact lenses ( Read more... )

I can’t believe I had eye surgery today on my left eye. 2 weeks I go back for my right eye.

So I bought a plane ticket to San Diego for August...to visit him. $11 plus the $28 protection fee. I KNOW!!! Dumb cheap. I had mentioned going out there to him as an idea just to test the water and see how he’d react. And brought it back up another while later. It was spur of the moment when I was browsing the prices and then it just happened. I ( Read more... )

The world is changing and right now it’s heavy. With this virus, racism, protests, and an ignorant president, I want to stay informed and also want to isolate myself. I have to take mental breaks from all the news on social media ( Read more... )

I’ve been sick again and now that I’m almost better my head has been hurting. Not a headache but it feels like this weird pressure sensation. I mostly feel dizzy and light headed. Idk ( Read more... )