Im staring at a photo of myself I pinned to the corkboard. I printed it out when I was thinking about sending Greg a photo. It just shows my nose and eyes and it hints at lips. I really needed an adjustment.

Still early but Im ready for bed. Took a hot hot bath, which is what I do when Im feeling low. A wave of lonliness smacked me down, ( Read more... )

Strep throat has struck again. Winter is back and I have jury duty in Detroit tomorrow ( Read more... )

Talked to Greg tonight at length. Weird to talk so much, we've been communicating in time allowing dispatches for years now. We have so much in common and in other ways he is completely foreign to me. Talking about meeting this Summer. Wonder what that would be like. He is a wonderful man, I cant think of anything negative to say about him.

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Telocity has been down today. Dreamt about Nathan, crazy. He was up on stilts. Not sure what that means, that I feel that love is to out of reach? Im going to tell my subconcious to let high school go for chrissakes. I was going to the prom. Whats done is done and all I can do is deal with the future.

Speaking of which I need to setup a mailing ( Read more... )

I had a date last night with Bill. It was fun, I drank alot. I was instantly attracted to him. I wrote him when I got home that I had a fun time and he hasnt emailed me back. I dont know how he feels about me, if anything at all. He paid positive compliments to me regarding the way I looked so thats something. The alcohol slowed me down a bit, I ( Read more... )

Right now I feel like I have too many projects going on, like Im jack of all trades and master of none. I need to generate a better income, maybe I should focus on one thing, web design, but I like writing. Basically I lack discipline and I suck at organizing my time. I spend hours looking for the perfect font, then do other things. Web is art, so ( Read more... )

Monday night driving home from class I realized I didnt remember what it was like to french kiss. Yesterday, Wednesday I noticed the plants starting to grow in my little greenhouse. I put a throw pillow over the vent so it wouldnt dry out the soil. Its cold in there but working. This week has been good, productivity wise, I cleaned the house on ( Read more... )

Hello depression! Glad to see that the SSRI's arent blocking you from doing your job, thrusting ugly fat getting old woman who hasnt created the epic novel/screenplay thoughts into my head. Watching others get ahead while I chase my tail.

One week two days on this and Im sitting here eating cheezits, fresh from the shower. Dreamt of Jim Carrey and ( Read more... )

Brians birthday party today. Went well. Pissed off like a wet wasp that the fucking dog of my Moms BIT my precious buddha in the face. Fuck little dogs. It wont be smiling the next time I see it. Samantha didnt bring any food, but we had more then enough. I love scalloped potatos. Jennie and Sam spent the night, it was fun, she is a bit clingy. ( Read more... )

Night again. Winter came creeping back today, throwing its coldness all over, creating swirls of snow and other unpleasant bits. Look we had a dose of snow, more then enough to last us a couple of winters, move on already.

Saw doc. today, got some Celexa, was anxious and so forth. Went and got Carol, went to filthy house and saw filthy people, ( Read more... )