Realizations

[torturedslayer]

Chris and mom finally made it back to the cabin. I had been sitting on the patio thinkng about things and enjoying the quiet when Chris came out to talk to me. He asked if I would mind if he went back to the manor. I didn't mind at all he needed to see them as much as he needed to be with me. I had mom and dad and the kids so I would be ok

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[perrychris]

I orbed by the water and saw julie and said " Julie come quickly.. I only..have fifteen minutes..." I told her in a shakely voice as I looked at her.

I was definitely feeling the emotions building up.

[torturedslayer]

I stood up and slid my shoes on

"Only have 15 minutes? why? what?"

I said confused

[perrychris]

"I'm gonna fade away and go back to my time in 15 minutes it's all we have.. Willow is doing the spell. Do..you want to take a picture of me to remember me by?.." I said as my voice contiued to be shakely and I looked at her.

[torturedslayer]

"15 minutes is all I have to say bye to the first love of my life? how is this fair?"

totally glossing over the picture comment.

"I can't do this"

runs back to the house

[torturedmom]

I was putting stuff away as the kids ate popcorn and Craig was helping me out by putting some of their stuff away. I went to the kitchen to get a glass of water when Julie runs back into the cabin, looking upset.

"Julie, honey? What's wrong?"

[torturedslayer]

"I have now 12 minutes to say bye to Chris. He is leaving now and he expects me to be able to say bye in 12 minutes."

Crying

"I can't do this I can't lose one of the best things to happen to me"

[torturedmom]

"Oh my GOD...I knew he had to go back, but...Julie, you better go say goodbye, you won't get the chance again, baby. And you'll find someone else to love you, I just know it."

[perrychris]

I stood at the door and I heard miranda and Julie and looked down and I waited for her come back. I said " 10minutes.."
I was counting down when I was just going fade away into nothingness and back in my time.

[torturedslayer]

I curled up in her arms

"Make him come back...please"

I said softly

[torturedmom]

"Honey, I wish I could, you know I'd do anything for you." I said, holding her and caressing her. "I'm so very sorry this happened, I had no idea..."

[torturedslayer]

whispers

"make him come back"

I said softly. sitting up and pulling away from her calling Chris' name.

"He said once all I had to do was call his name and he would be here...maybe if I call his name enough"

[torturedmom]

I felt so bad for her...I almost started crying myself.

"Baby...I don't think that's going to happen now...he's where he belongs, in the future...I don't think he can hear you...I'm so sorry..."

[torturedslayer]

I was laying on my bed not wanting to clean up glass I just threw the roses in the trashcan instead of throwing the whole vase across the room. I hated this and wanted it to be over.

I contemplated slitting my wrists, but knew that Chris would hate that, which made me hate him more for leaving me here in pain, with no easy out.

[torturedmom]

Craig knocked on Julie's door. "Julie, sweetie, can we come in?"

I stood there by him and waited for her response, I was so worried.

[torturedslayer]

I turned over

"Go away"

I said not wanting to deal with this right now. I just wanted to curl up and die. I turned back over, my back to them and began to cry again.

[torturedmom]

Craig and I looked at each other.

"Maybe we should just let her be." I said nervously.

He took my hands into his own. "I think she needs her mother right now."

I nodded. "Why don't you go check on the kids, make sure they're not setting the woods on fire...again...and I'll go sit with her awhile." I almost laughed at the woods on fire thing, but my thoughts were back on Julie and I saddened once again.

Craig kissed me, he's the most wonderful kisser I've ever known, then left to deal with the kids. I just know that someday she'll have someone as wonderful as Craig in her life. I just wish it were today...

I carefully open the door and walk in, then go and sit on her bed next to her, and start massaging her back as she cried.