And im the only one up. idk why but i feel compelled to be up.

 Im so fucking scared.

I dont want to go.

If I'm fucking not wanted, just say so.

Dear Mystery Someone,

I know you're out there. And I'm here waiting patiently. I have been for awhile. I've told people I didn't want you. That I liked being single. It wasn't a total lie. But it was a denial of some truth. That I will admit. I apologize I said that. Its my fault really. 
     I also know that you may never come to me. Perhaps ( Read more... )

Some food for thought ( Read more... )

STOP IT. IT DISGUSTS ME. I'VE SHED MY TEARS. CANT YOU SEE THEM RUNNING DOWN MY FACE!?  NO OF COURSE YOU COULDNT. HOW SILLY OF ME TO SEE THAT YOU ONLY SEE YOURSELF AND THAT IS ALL.

fucking stop.

its nasty

dirty

repulsive

why do you keep doing that. fucking stop!!

oh my god quit touching!

quit making noises.

You make me feel vile.

Fucking END it.

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I feel disappointment in people. It does not matter the gender. I have this rage building inside that I know is truly supressed hurt. I cannot help but type furiously and think to myself "What a foolish thing it is. why try to find love? To search for it is just a silly notion. Each kiss I see and sucking noise I hear makes my throat tighten and ( Read more... )

I miss waking up and talking to Chris. My day just didn't start the same...

I just spent 2 hours vigorously cleaning the house after working 5 hours at JC Penney. Needless to say, I feel very accomplished!

Listening to Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Gabby: Yea just wait till I throw my bra at you next week!

Can't wait till Warped Tour!