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[rrockmysocks]

I have not updated in a while. I guess i havent really had anything to say. I am feeling a little better this week. not perfect, but better. I am just starting to give up on everything. It is so much better than giving up and not caring, than striving and striving and never ever getting anywhere. It is better to be emotionally numb. And that

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[rrockmysocks]

seriously. i hate nhp this year. and it really sucks without steve.

Re: You are "special" not ed

[rrockmysocks]

hmm. i dont know about that.

[joe_joe_ma]

and katie, seriously this kind of thought will get you nowhere. Im not gonna give you that "trust me i know" crap but being "emotionally void" because of 3 crap ass months is a load of shit. I thought i was most likely how your feeling because of a horrible 8th grade but you know what? It only gets worse and having this mentality wont do shit for you. Im not saying be happy. Because frankly there is no reason to be happy. Im just saying you aren't apathetic because you writing with quite a bit of feeling or passion or whatever you wanna call it. and writing with indifference produces only pure shit.
To sum it all up, im saying you do care, you just think you don't, and lying to yourself is crap too.

[rrockmysocks]

hah. yeah i know. but whatever. and this hasn't just been in the past three months. this has been going on for awhile. i am just tired of trying to make everything better. so now i am just trying to take what life gives me and deal with everything. (instead of trying hard to reverse everything) (which, by the way, is impossible).