I have been feeling so horrible... physically and mentally. I need brian. brian brian brian. I'm addicted.

I wish I meant something to you. Something more than what i mean to you now.

okay kids, this is the end. You can stop asking if we are there yet. Lay your head down and go to sleep, the worst is over.

The last entry seemed to upset quite a few people. So forget that I ever wrote it. I'm sorry that I am so stupid.

I have been so insanely depressed lately. I havent been able to stop crying in days. It's obscene, really. It is just impossible for me to be happy right now. (i know, i know, i am so emo, blah, blah) I just feel like I am losing so much right now, and loss is one of my biggest fears. I hate losing people, things.... everything. I can't even ( Read more... )

Today is a day.... Wednesday... A day that started off weird. Today when i woke up i got this feeling that i just couldn't ignore. I dont know what it is, and I cant even begin to describe it. but it wont go away. grr. someone kidnap me please.

There is so much that I want to say. But at the same time, I can't. Right now, my life seems so fake. I feel like I am living in six different worlds at once... living six different lies. Lies that just keep getting harder and harder to manage. I know this doesn't make any sense. I don't think that it is supposed to.

I have been sick since thursday. I had to go to fucking urgent care. Doctors are dumb. Besides being sick my week has been going pretty well. A little, dramatic, but still, I can't complain. I am in Honors 11th/12th english now because my regular english class got dropped. I'm going to miss steve a lot. At least I will still have him for the

This day started out really, really bad. But then it got better, and then it got GRReat! I am in love with today. If only it would never end. I guess we can only wait to see what tomorrow has in store.

This whole day has been filled with waiting. Waiting for the minutes to go by. Waiting for the hours to pass. Waiting for my friends to hurry up and get their asses over here. So much waiting.