WARNING: explosive materials
ok, so.
first off, this behcet's is kicking my ass. i am fucking exhausted, it hurts, and it's not going away and it won't for probably at least another week. one of the meds they put me on to help control the inflammation is giving me insomnia and i got roughly an hour of sleep last night.
so today, first day back to school, i was too weak to go yesterday. after a fucking HOUR OF SLEEP. go to take my meds, realize i have 3 vicodin left, meaning i have to ration them off and take them only at night so i can sleep better. and the anti-inflammatory pills are pretty much heavy-duty tylenol, so i can't take regular tylenol for the pain because i would be ODing on the main drug in both. also, by going off the vicodin and not having enough to take every 4 hours like i have been doing for the past week, i am getting headaches and body aches because of withdrawal. so that's awesome.
also, my adderall mixed with my morning coffee mixed with severe lack of sleep mixed with physical exhaustion from the behcet's equals me feeling ready to collapse, but also motivated to do work and get out and be productive, which is, as i'm finding out, one of the worst feelings in the world.
and on top of THAT i am on the second day of my period, which really could NOT have come at a worse time, save 2 days prior. so i'm feeling like shit just from that and i can't do anything about the pain from the cramps because i can't take any pain-relievers because, again, i would be ODing on the drug they already prescribed to me.
but i was optimistic about the rest of the afternoon: senior release followed by a long, much-needed nap. but NO. instead, i come home to find my mom gone and 5 workmen at my house installing (VERY noisily, i might add) an air circulation system in my mom's work studio, which is conveniently located RIGHT NEXT to my bedroom, so there goes that idea.
so now i'm just sitting at home in agony, and really cold, eating chocolate chip teddy grahams wishing these fucking LOUD strangers would leave my house and just let me fucking rest.
MOTHERFUCKERWORSTDAYEVERAHHHH!!!!!
first off, this behcet's is kicking my ass. i am fucking exhausted, it hurts, and it's not going away and it won't for probably at least another week. one of the meds they put me on to help control the inflammation is giving me insomnia and i got roughly an hour of sleep last night.
so today, first day back to school, i was too weak to go yesterday. after a fucking HOUR OF SLEEP. go to take my meds, realize i have 3 vicodin left, meaning i have to ration them off and take them only at night so i can sleep better. and the anti-inflammatory pills are pretty much heavy-duty tylenol, so i can't take regular tylenol for the pain because i would be ODing on the main drug in both. also, by going off the vicodin and not having enough to take every 4 hours like i have been doing for the past week, i am getting headaches and body aches because of withdrawal. so that's awesome.
also, my adderall mixed with my morning coffee mixed with severe lack of sleep mixed with physical exhaustion from the behcet's equals me feeling ready to collapse, but also motivated to do work and get out and be productive, which is, as i'm finding out, one of the worst feelings in the world.
and on top of THAT i am on the second day of my period, which really could NOT have come at a worse time, save 2 days prior. so i'm feeling like shit just from that and i can't do anything about the pain from the cramps because i can't take any pain-relievers because, again, i would be ODing on the drug they already prescribed to me.
but i was optimistic about the rest of the afternoon: senior release followed by a long, much-needed nap. but NO. instead, i come home to find my mom gone and 5 workmen at my house installing (VERY noisily, i might add) an air circulation system in my mom's work studio, which is conveniently located RIGHT NEXT to my bedroom, so there goes that idea.
so now i'm just sitting at home in agony, and really cold, eating chocolate chip teddy grahams wishing these fucking LOUD strangers would leave my house and just let me fucking rest.
MOTHERFUCKERWORSTDAYEVERAHHHH!!!!!