i wish some people would just let me BE. why cant i just live my life the way i want to. im trying so hard and i realized i cant be everything to everyone anymore, im just going to be me and im sorry if that is not good enough. (this is not directed towards anyone so please dont think it is cause i love everyone who reads this, its just a general ( Read more... )

i just got done reading a private entry i wrote like a month and a half ago, and you know what reading it made me realize that i still feel the same way. even though ive tried, trust me ive tried, i still feel the same way as i felt when i wrote it. why cant life just be easier, someone just throw me a bone here. sometimes i wish i could just take ( Read more... )

making yourself happy is hard work and tiring, but sometimes worth it. the past few days have been not to bad...interesting to say to the least. i swear my life should be a show, a camera should follow me around. id make millions lol. i just have alot to think about and i guess im having a hard time making decisions.

yes thats right, i told myself i was going to have fun tonight and you know what, i did! ha i had such a good time and i know i should feel bad but you know what i just cant do it every night ( Read more... )

well as you may have noticed most of feelings can be expressed by a dashboard confessional song lol. yeah thats not really a good thing but what are you going to do ( Read more... )

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself ( Read more... )

ive never felt so upset, uhh work definately made me sad today.... why am i making this so difficult for myself. :(

on a lighter note, i still really want to lay someone out!
-burnout lot tomorrow bitches

i never want to drink like that again, ugh it was the worst weekend ever! i really wish i could erase it from everyones memories. i dont remember alot of stuff and its horrible and i feel horrible. i hurt someone who i never meant to hurt and i said things i would never ever mean. im sorry to anyone i hurt, or was disrespectful too im so sorry. im ( Read more... )

" this feeling of yours is temporary, it will be worth the wait to see you smile again ( Read more... )

" your beautifully sensitive, however, it is your biggest downfall" exact words of lori.

:( this is just all too much, i cant do it anymore

uhh i just threw up, im so stressed out