4am restless

[ruanna]

Something needs to bend. Something needs to change. I had a long, pleasant dinner with my mum and we seem to have patched up. I feel itchy with the need to do something, anything. I want to move furniture but i'll wake up everyone in this and all adjoining houses. I wish i could bake

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[acsian85]

Learn how to bake!
Its easy!

You were a science student for pete's sake. Its just measuring out amounts, mixing and placing it in the oven.

SERIOUSLY. Start baking.

Facing the future is always scary. Just thinking about life after school and the working world kinda makes me nervous. Bon courage!

[ruanna]

no no i do know how to bake, it's just that i can't bake at weird hours of the night anymore, the house is too small and i'll wake my parents up.

hi.

[anonymous]

I think the hardest part to life is just never knowing your place in a future so unpredictable. Sometimes its even harder when you've worked so hard along the way and when you don't see immediate results.

I'm not sure whether you're experiencing the pressure of having to deal with friends/family that are constantly prying into what you're doing and where you're gg. Live by your own expectations and not those set by others. You don't need to validate anything to anyone but yourself.

Take your time to do your own things. Take your time to figure it out, and never rush into something at the cost of an even bigger better opportunity. You yourself know you're capable of things

Regards,
An old friend.

hi back!

[ruanna]

Is this tabbi?? You've made me really curious, haha. Anyway thanks for replying. You're right, people do keep asking me what i'm doing now, but it's a pretty normal conversational thing, i guess - i think i'm putting the pressure on myself, now. I suppose i probably haven't been in touch with you? But i've known i'm not finishing my last year of archi for a while, and i've been figuring stuff out since school ended in may-ish. Or really i've been saying that, but my mum basically did say that figuring stuff out entails going out there and trying new things so i know what i want, which is totally true. I guess right now what i want in my life is change - and what i need to do is to actively pursue it, which is proving to be easier said than done.

Re: hi back!

[anonymous]

I once had a friend who said I had a finger in every pie - and I initially took it as a statement insinuating indecisiveness. Now i realize that it was merely experimentation, till i really figured out what I wanted. Your mom is right. You need to get out there and take time out to discover what really works for you. It is hard, but you actually have to apply yourself in a certain field in order to understand if the perceptions you have about it change for the better or perhaps maybe even the worse.

Best of luck. I hope you find the passion you're craving.

and no, not tabbi. Dont know who he/she is but I reckon I'm much cooler. ;)