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I am so fucking full of anxiety right now. All that comes out of my mother's mouth to me has something to do with college now. We've looked at a million schools. I've chosen my major--are you happy?! i've taken the SATs twice and i thought i got a good score, but apparently i have to take them again AND get a better score. Schools okay, i just don't feel like being there at all. my teachers are cool, and usually that makes me like school, but now i just feel nothing. I feel like i shouldn't do anything. And i can't even think of my father without wanting to scream.. i don't know whats wrong with him, and what kind of stick he has up his ass but he's always taking it out on one of us. The only way i feel really content is with my friends and sean. (Sorry guys, i know you've heard a lot of complaints from me in the past but thanks for reading and caring if you do.) They're the only people that when i'm around them, i don't think of anything else thats happened or is going to happen to me. I live in the moment when i'm with them. hgf7vgr75834gy%^&TFGJHCY^$YJHhrc 78tyugjk&*RFYH